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comment question / a realization about my strength.



how much do comments mean to you in general?

Mean: 5.99 Median: 6 Std. Dev 1.56
1
0(0.0%)
2
2(2.3%)
3
2(2.3%)
4
15(17.0%)
5
10(11.4%)
6
26(29.5%)
7
13(14.8%)
8
20(22.7%)

how much do comments on emotional posts mean to you?

Mean: 6.81 Median: 7.5 Std. Dev 1.62
1
1(1.1%)
2
1(1.1%)
3
4(4.5%)
4
3(3.4%)
5
6(6.8%)
6
13(14.8%)
7
16(18.2%)
8
44(50.0%)

how much do in-depth comments mean to you?

Mean: 7.01 Median: 8 Std. Dev 1.56
1
1(1.1%)
2
1(1.1%)
3
2(2.3%)
4
4(4.5%)
5
6(6.8%)
6
8(9.1%)
7
14(15.9%)
8
52(59.1%)


For me, I really want lots of comments if I post about my races or my world; otherwise, I love them but never feel slighted if I don't get them (okay, maybe if you didn't tell me happy birthday I might have felt a little slighted). BUT -- I always want everyone to participate in my polls.

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Yesterday, Matthew (this highschooler cashier) was working at the next register over, and he told me his IPH (items scanned per hour) and wanted me to tell him mine, but I wouldn't. So he came over to my register as I was finishing with a customer, and was about to reach for the action code keys to get it anyway -- and I grabbed his hand and said, "Oh no you don't, buddy." He stepped back, and I gave my customers their receipt, smiled and wished them good day, then turned back to him. He told me I have 'man hands'; I asked what he meant by that and he said that I have a very strong grip. Without thinking, I said, "Yeah, well I'm able to stop people from doing things I don't want them to." He said, "really? You've needed to stop people?" or something like that -- I didn't quite catch it because he was walking back to his register. He was probably trying to be a smartass (like usual).

Anyway, that little incident made me realize that I am strong.
I am no longer a helpless child, and I don't need to feel like one.
I am able to defend myself.
I am able to say no.

I feel my strength awakening in my spirit; my shimmering white cobra is rearing her unutterably beautiful, dangerous head. It feels so good, so freeing.

feelings: powerful
sounds: the Benjamin Gate: "Lay It Down"
connecting: ,

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Comments
moody_godess ══╣╠══
wow, i suck..i did forget to wish you a happy birthday..im sorry.

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear bbbeeeellleeennneennnnn!

Happy Birthday to you!
AND MANY MOOORRREEEE!

sorry it was late.

ps. and yes, it is freeing to have the ability to say no and to feel able to defend yourself.

xo
valynn ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣╠══
toadiedeogre ══╣╠══
Yours is a Cobra huh? Mine is a Lion. I like that........yes you do have strength, have you ever got a reading??

Toadie
belenen ══╣curious╠══
nope, don't really know what you mean by reading.
toadiedeogre ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣╠══
jessbarely ══╣╠══
today at work they wanted me to stick around for an extra three hours for no apparent reason, it wasn't as if they were going to fire me if i didn't. normally i would have just done it, given in and let it go and stuck through the extra hours...but i told them no, that i had other things to do, and that i would see them wednesday.

it is liberating to finally stand up for yourself. so i feel ya on this one completely. it gives me strength and hope for my future. i no longer feel weak...
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
good job! ;-)
inode_finder ══╣╠══
What an asshole that cashier "boy" is.
_displaced_ ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣giggling╠══
heh heh...

unfortunately that might've gotten me fired, so I didn't.
xxxmcmccxxx ══╣╠══
i would have slapped the kid lol.

im new to your journal. when was your bday? Happy late bday :)

realizing your stregnth is great. im glad you realize you dont need to feel helpless. thats a wonderful realization :)
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thank you! and yes, it is a wonderful realization.
misemifein2 ══╣╠══
First time you've used your strong icon since the 1st of january (by my reckoning).

Post made me grin, you sounded like you're about to go and kick some ass. Like a superhero, an X-woman or something. I know the feeling though, tis good.
belenen ══╣strong╠══
I am the kickass woman. ;-)

And it is so awesome to me that you noticed that about my icon. I want to hug you!
ohsoodeviouzz ══╣╠══
I may not comment as much as i would like to but whenever i do get online and see you have updated ill make sure to say something..

About your job.. Is there some kind of thing where you guys try to get the most scanned items in an hour? Or is it just to throw it in the others face and tell them you have done more than he has..

Im glad you woke up and finally realized that you are strong and able to defend yourself about anything... When i realize that.. i guess ill be fine too..
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
oh, you don't need to comment on all my entries, just take my polls and respond to my posts about my fantasy races and I'll be happy. ;-)
youraugustine ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
I'd prefer silence by far to a remark that makes the mood worse, and when I am emotional I am spectacularly indifferent to intent-vs-result spectra.

Quite understandable.
eternitywaiting ══╣╠══
I probably would have used my "man hands" to smack that boy if I were you. But then you're a lot more mellow than I am. :-) Glad you came out of it with something good, though!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
I probably would have used my "man hands" to smack that boy if I were you. But then you're a lot more mellow than I am.

He's so immature I feel like he's a little kid, so he never really gets under my skin. If he did I'd tell him off and he'd avoid me forever after. He was pretty freaked out by me grabbing his hand to begin with.
shespoke ══╣╠══
it's very nice to know that you're able to defend yourself. it's also nice though, for me, to know that i'm with someone who would never put me in a position like that, and who knows that no means no.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Oh, I can't imagine what it'd be like to be in any other kind of relationship! My husband Ben would rather be tortured to death than ever do something to me that I didn't want him to do.
shespoke ══╣╠══
tinystages ══╣╠══
i noticed you removed me from your friends list. i was just wondering why. no hard feelings, just wondering...
belenen ══╣honesty╠══
Well, I just didn't feel like I could connect with you. From reading your journal, I didn't really get a good feel of who you are. When you talked about Chase you got close to it, but otherwise I just didn't feel like I understood you. It's no criticism, we just have different journalling styles.
So the reason was that I didn't feel like we connected.
tinystages ══╣╠══
phrankenstyne ══╣╠══
Happy belated Birthday!

Sorry if I seem to have fallen off the face of the earth for a little while. I do that occasionally.

It does feel nice to stand up for yourself, doesn't it? They tried calling me into work on Monday night and I would have said yes if not for the fact that this is my first vacation in 4 years. Say no more often. It's liberating.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Thank you!
zerotristessa ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
I dont really like it when people comment on emotional entries, besides the usual comforting. Sometimes their advice is just a little bit off, because they don't know the whole story, or they are biased. Just knowing they read/listened to what i said satisfies me enough.

I'm totally with you on that; yet I can't stand it when people comment with nothing said other than *huggles*. A sentence, any sentence, is good though.

Maybe on the ones you really want a to discussion going on, you should ask a question at the end. It works for me, usually. ;-)
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