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dream (fighting porn)


Yesternight I had a dream that I was arguing my hardest with a guy who looked kinda like S (biosibling) -- trying my best to convince him of the damage porn causes. I kept waking up frustrated and falling asleep to try harder -- and I looked at the clock, so I know I spent like two hours doing that. Don't remember if I succeeded or not. So last night I didn't go to sleep until about 8:00am, dreading more of the same.

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misemifein2 ══╣╠══
Seth is your brother, is that right? Have you argued with him or anyone about porn recently, or was it kind of spontaneous? Just wondering if you know what caused the dream.

Whenever I've been arguing about something then it always seems to seep into my dreams and make them bad.

belenen ══╣passionate╠══
for some reason responding to this comment has made my computer shut down twice, but I'm going to try again.

I haven't exactly argued, but recently a friend found out that her husband had been cheating on her with cybersex and was planning casual sex with some of these women... and it reminded me very strongly of the friendly discussion we had a few months ago as to whether porn was okay in some insances (her thought) or evil always (my thought). I don't know what she thinks now, but back then I had told her that the bad thing about porn was that it's very addictive and degenerative -- you might start off with soft porn (which may or may not be wrong) but it nearly always leads to deeper, worse stuff. And now it kinda happened with her husband, and I want to tell her that it isn't her fault, it's porns fault, porn is evil and destructive, but that seems like saying 'told ya so'....... so it's in my heart and my head for sure.

My mind probably used my brother as the arguer because he used to have a problem with porn.
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