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am I happy? / april 1


Today at work, I walked past the greeter (an oldish man) and smiled at him, and he said, "What's new with you?" I said "not much" and he said "You've been really happy this past week." and I didn't know what to say. I've been doing that little-kid clapping-in-front-then-back-then-front-etcetera thing several times lately, that's probably it.

But then again, why've I been doing that? Hm. It's odd to me, because I am usually very sensitive to my own moods (if you can understand that) and know exactly where I am emotionally. Maybe quitting lifted a burden that was heavier than I thought.

P.S. I thought of all these April Fools posts I could do, but I didn't want to unintentionally prophesy, and I didn't think you'd fall for 'em anyway since LJ's running rampant with the jokes. So I'm not pregnant (as far as I know), I didn't cut my hair off, alariya and I are still friends, and my cat is definitely alive. Hope you all had a great Atheists' Day! ;-)

feelings: teasing
sounds: Muse: "The Small Print"

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sidheblessed ══╣ponr╠══
I don't know why, but I think someone saying to me "You look happy," would make me feel happy. I guess it's just a nice, positive thign to say. Much beter than "You look blue," or something!
eternitywaiting ══╣mila╠══
I hate when someone tells me I look depressed. Quick way to make me depressed, dammit. Everyone's prettier when they're happy!
aubkabob ══╣╠══
uuuugh, my friend joe and i always had a deep connection, and he USED to be able to read my moods very accurately.

however, after living in different states for forever and a day, our in tuneness is now off, resulting in my staring off into space (which i do A LOT), and him constantly 'what's wrong? are you sure you're okay? is everything alright?''ing me to death.... eventually i start overanalyzing myself (which i also do A LOT), and start trying to find things that are wrong, because OBVIOUSLY he's reading into something i haven't noticed yet!

blargh.

sometimes, too, i'll be deep in thought, and will be scowling... i'm not angry... just .. thinking.

both my brother and i have a tendency to think deeply and have inner monologues with ourselves... he actually makes the facial expressions and moves his mouth and hands, i just make the facial expressions.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
it did make me feel happy, but it also confused me because I've been digging up so much pain lately -- it seems like I should be sad.
izzard_uk ══╣╠══
Maybe you ate some chocolate.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
yuck. I no lika dat.
izzard_uk ══╣╠══
Blimey...not like chocolate? Even Cadbury's Dairy Milk? I love chocolate - I can't understand disliking it. Still, we're all different :)
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
well, I like it if it's combined with peanut butter or mint -- like Butterfinger Crisps or Andes mints. mmmm....
izzard_uk ══╣╠══
If you e-mail me your address I'll send you a bar of Dairy Milk and see if I can change your mind :)
eternitywaiting ══╣bastard╠══
Thank you for the lack of April-Foolishness. I'm not a fan of this holiday. Though I don't think I would have believed the hair thing, or about Ash...I'da called you on that one pretty fast. :-P
darkpool ══╣╠══
I love you icon, it's so cute. What's it from? and can I steal it?
eternitywaiting ══╣bastard╠══
Thank you. :-) It's an image of Kirara from InuYasha that I just felt deserved the benefit of curse words. :-P And sure, steal away, hehe.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
;-)
sciethen ══╣╠══
She doesn't like chocolate :P

But I agree... she has been wonderous of spirit lately. Perhaps it is the counciling...?
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
Re: She doesn't like chocolate :P
*kisses*
nikare ══╣╠══
"Be mindful of your feelings."
belenen ══╣confused╠══
?
ravensfeather ══╣╠══
hehee... "Atheists' Day"...
That bumber sticker is on my car.
I thought it was frickin' hilarious.
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