February 2018
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eviltwin and I talk about nude modeling


My eviltwin spent the night after the hair-cutting ceremony, and the next day we got up late and sat around in the living room talking. She brought up the subject of my nude modeling in her blunt way, "So why did you decide to do that?" waving her hand at my photo album. Thanks to an LJ friend questioning me a few days ago, I actually had my thoughts organized and was able to explain my thoughts and feelings on the subject. I told her that I posed the first time because I was curious; I wanted to see what it was like. After that experience, I continued because it changed me, helped me to see my own beauty and recognize that how God made me was art in itself. She was surprised to hear that I had always thought of myself as unattractive and plain.

She amazed me with her openmindedness. She listened and considered what I had to say and didn't contradict me or try to change my opinion once! I did not expect that at all. After I had explained, she said that she had been praying about it and she felt like God said there was something about it she was missing, something that she didn't understand, so she asked me for the answer. She said that she felt that there were some people who would not be able to grasp the meaning and the art behind it, such as her parents, but she understood. I really think she did.

I expected to have to defend myself, and instead I received understanding. I am so impressed with how Kristen has matured and is thinking for herself more, even when it comes to disagreeing with what her parents might think! She's amazing. I don't know if I'd have been able to stretch that rapidly if I were in her shoes. I'm so glad that we're rekindling our friendship now and not a year ago -- only now are we really ready for each other. I'm so excited to watch her grow and mature and I am eager for the future of our friendship.

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perilousdreamer ══╣╠══
It's always been my belief that God puts certain people in your path at a certain time for a reason. You and Kristen seem to be the perfect example of my beliefs. I'm glad things are working out for you so well.
belenen ══╣shimmering╠══
I agree with you on that belief. I believe everything happens for a reason.
shespoke ══╣╠══
I'm glad everything is going so well. :)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
;-)
sing_dream_love ══╣╠══
Friends like that are the best type to have. ;-)
belenen ══╣shimmering╠══
so true!
paperwings21 ══╣╠══
That's great that you feel so great about your friendship and that you value it. Appreciation is such a huge part of a good friendship.

:)
belenen ══╣shimmering╠══
True, though I had never really thought about it that way before. I think appreciation is a form of respect though, and you can't have any decent relationship without mutual respect.
paperwings21 ══╣╠══
Mutual respect is the most important thing. Once you have that, everything else sort of falls in line.

:)
untoldeuphemism ══╣╠══
I am really hoping to be able to chat with you in real time. I have AIM, Yahoo, and MSN all with the same name as my LJ.

I believe people cross paths for a reason and there are some things I was wanting to talk about with you if that's ok.
belenen ══╣analytical╠══
Yeah, I'd be happy to do that. Unfortunately this is bad timing, 'cause I'm about to be out of town with no phone or internet, but sometime after next friday we'll have to do that. ;-)
aubkabob ══╣Acne Blast Man╠══
it always brings me such joy to see others growing and expanding without leaning on others as much for insight as to what is right to think or believe or feel or do. it's a very beautiful transition, it is.

congratulations to the both of you!
belenen ══╣shimmering╠══
Yes it is. It's amazing to me to watch my friends grow up. I suppose I'm so used to dealing with people who stubbornly refuse to change that I am just astonished to see people like me who are deliberately changing!
aubkabob ══╣╠══
i'm certain that you have a great impact on that, as you have on me. although i'm not nearly where i want to be for my health, i constantly look at myself nude in the mirror and admire my curves. i never ever would have done that before meeting you.
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.