September 2017
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dream (screaming, no one helps; hearing screams for help and being unable to help; britney spears)


I was at the old house with my parents and someone (my dad? my uncle?) took me out on the back porch and told me to scream as if I was being attacked and see if anyone came to help. So I screamed and screamed and no one came. Meanwhile he was holding my arms behind my back, so that I couldn't move.

Then I went inside, and I started hearing screams from outside -- at first I tried to shrug them off, but then I remembered being on the back porch and I couldn't put it out of my mind and I begged my dad to go with me to see if someone was being hurt. He refused, insisted that they were just having fun, and I ran towards the door but stopped halfway and beat my fists on the wall, screaming and crying. My parents asked why I wasn't going after all, and I said that I couldn't because I didn't have a gun -- if only I had a pistol I would, but I could do nothing with my bare hands to help anyone. They told me that they were impressed that I ran for the front door because they kept the shotgun on the porch (which I did not know).

Then the scene changed and for some reason I was having sex with Britney Spears -- not for my own pleasure but because I felt sorry for her, since she'd never had an orgasm with her husband. So I gave her one. Very strange because I don't think she's attractive and I never think about her.
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.