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website / first red bra & fury at VicSecret / phone crap / last.fm


I'm really looking forward to having some 'extra' money... as soon as I can afford it, I'm going to buy a new webhost (probably with www.dreamhost.com) and transfer both my jewelry and personal websites to it... which will mean it's impossible to hotlink and I'll be able to set up my photography portfolio again, and I'll probably get inspired to actually work on my website. I need more bandwidth than I currently have, because my site's getting a lot of hits lately -- over 400 unique hits in 3 weeks! LJ has kinda taken the place of coding lately, but I really miss it. It's one of my favorite creative outlets. And I really want to work on the Egypt part... but I need to organize exactly what I want to do first. I'll be really happy to be able to set up my portfolio again -- once I took it down I realized how much I missed it. I love that part of me... especially with my growing love for my body. I ♥ curvygirls.

I just bought my first red bra! and officially boycotted 'Victoria's Secret' (read that in a snotty tone) because of their emaciated mannequins. It's not enough that they have mannequins that are far, far thinner than the average woman, no, they have to add protruding bones! BONES on a fucking MANNEQUIN. I was FURIOUS. I looked around for a helpless employee on whom to vent my wrath, but got too fed up and ended up marching out of the store. I went to Fredricks of Hollywood (who have a much wider range of colors anyway, VS only carries my size in black and nude), who will be getting my business from now on. And I plan to bad-mouth VS to anyone who will listen. Fuckers.

Phone is still off, after talking to three different people. I'm (possibly) going into an official store tomorrow. We're definitely switching phone companies, unless they do back flips to make up for all this. Maybe even then. grrr. I was missing aubkabob's voice so much that I listened to her songs a few times. Weird since we've only talked once, but still true.

I have so much I want to post about... I might just break my personal rule and post several in a row. But they won't all be as complainy as this!

And omg, I LOVE this thing that jamina1 introduced me to -- http://www.last.fm/user/belenen/ It shows everything you listen to on the computer and keeps stats! So very cool! I'm excited.

feelings: moody
sounds: Flunk: "Miss World"
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Comments
kevloid ══╣╠══
I wonder why it's called victoria's secret.

have they seen queen victoria?
belenen ══╣giggling╠══
*snicker*
kevloid ══╣╠══
oh, and I gave someone your waterstar address. he makes jewellery and was thinking of doing a website like yours - I though maybe he could pick your brain.
belenen ══╣earrings╠══
awesome!
untoldeuphemism ══╣╠══
I hate Victoria's Secret. Not only are the mannequins revolting but so are the salespeople and everything there is insanely expensive too. I simply cannot justify $14 for a pair of underwear. I cannot even go in there without being accosted by a fake friendly person who is just not listening to anything I am saying and instead trying to get me to sign up for their Angels credit card or have my chest remeasured since according to her apparently most women are wearing an incorrect bra size. Well, let's see, I know my own boobs thank you very much and what does and does not fit since they are with me all day and all night long so I think no one would know this better than I. Last Christmas I totally lost it in there because FIVE saleswomen came up to me with the same shpeal in a matter of minutes [I'm a quick browser and was all over the store] and I ended up screaming that this is not custimer service but STALKING and they need to leave me alone when all I was doing was looking. I stormed out. Recently my friend Rosie was here visiting from out of state and we went to a mall. She wanted to go into Victoria's Secret so I wasn't going to say no. I started getting really annoyed with the salespeople yet again but said nothing because I didn't want to make a scene in front of my friend who I haven't seen since my second marriage in 2000. When the lady was pitching the Angels card I was fantasizing that all of a sudden I would grow massive feathery wings and knock her to the other end of the store with one. The really sad part is that all my underclothes are from Victoria's Secret because I know exactly what my size is there. I buy everything on sale because it is so damn expensive and I've tried Target and Walmart and the stores I usually shop at for other stuff but nothing from there has worked out in the underwear and bra range. Everytime I have bought items elsewhere, they either never fit right or are uncomfortable or some other random reason that gets me all annoyed that I've spent money to have something useless and am stuck buying what I know. I don't have the finances to experiment now but I can't wait to be able to find somethning else that works from a place that is not Victoria's Secret. Good thing I keep my stuff for a long time because $40 and up for a bra is just plain nuts.
belenen ══╣mysterious╠══
well, definitely try a Fredricks if they have one near you -- they actually have a wider range of sizes than VS does. They had three styles that they carried in my size, where VS only had 2, and they have a bunch of colors for each style... and my bra was only $28 -- they had a sale going for 2 for $48, but I didn't have the extra money, so I stuck with one. And it's quite comfortable!
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psych0squirrel ══╣╠══
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walkingbear ══╣╠══
Visuals
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mimimandy ══╣╠══
I couldn't remember but I thought it was you who had made that great post a while back not just acknowledging curvy women but thin ones too and I wonder if you had the link for that, the thin community I mean? I don't shop at Victoria's secret either. My mother says the secret is Victoria robs you blind. I have seen their dummies though and they're gross. Not all naturally thin or even underweight women look like that. Not to mention that most thin women do not have boobs that large. I never could afford to shop there and even when I could've it was depressing to go there and have the one saleslady inform me I'd have been in their training bra selection. I was an Acup but it wasn't a small Acup. After that I just didn't have the strength for that kind of condescendation.
belenen ══╣passionate╠══
the thin community is naturallythin. ;-)

I KNOW! Last time I went to Victoria's Secret, a VS salesperson first insisted that I was a 34C, HAH! I think they must all be insecure about their breast sizes or something, and so they try to belittle other women's breasts? It seems that everyone has the same sort of experience with them.
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
They put bones on a mannequin? Now that';s beyond weird and not to mention damaging to the self-esteem and society's perecptions of the ideal ody. That's wrong on mnay levels.
belenen ══╣upset╠══
I know, so many. Why bother even using mannequins, why not just buy one of those skeleton models they use in anatomy classes?
thesaj ══╣╠══
Yeah,...it's like forbidden to have a normal curvy, feminine advert....

BTW...I used www.ReadyHosting.com

$100/year for the basic plan...

Which includes 500megs of space, unlimited email accounts, unlimited bandwidth, unlimited Access DSNs, and ColdFusion 4.5

(this would allow you to create a database driven website so you can add new jewelry items)

Plus reseller accounts at 50% off!

If you need ColdFusionMX or ASP.NET it's $199/yr!

There is a $50 onetime set up fee. This includes unlimited "domain" registration.
belenen ══╣analytical╠══
thanks for the reccommendation, but I've found that dreamhost.com is freaking phenominal, and I plan to catch their 80% off sale... making it $80 for two years of hosting, 9600 MB disk storage, 144 GB of bandwidth per month, unlimited domain & sub-domain hosting, 1 free domain registration, passworded directories (to prevent hotlinking), email accounts, and other stuff (like once a month I can get them to call me to troubleshoot!). And no setup fee! So I'm happy (as long as I can get the sale).
abstractfish ══╣╠══
I can't help it. I'm a boy... I'll always love VS...
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
but bones are not sexy. Who wants to bang a skeleton?
baka_shampoo ══╣╠══
oh! i like the web-site, so interesting!
def. will be using it. thank you very much.
it's good your loving your body.
I wish I had that self-esteem, even with all the backgrounds of posters of bones and girls that skinny, it's hard for me to do.
belenen ══╣curvygirl╠══
cool, well let me know what your last.fm name is so I can add you!

Self-esteem is something you have to build... and one of the best ways to grow is to refuse to look at images of women who have an unnatural figure. join curvygirls and watch our photoposts! ;-)
shespoke ══╣╠══
Bones on the mannequin?
That makes me feel nauseous.
belenen ══╣pain╠══
oh Noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where's my Sarah?????????????????????? COME BACKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
trenchmeister ══╣╠══
Webhosting
You may want to check out Go Daddy. I've been with them for almost 2 years and they actually give you more than you opt for! My domain runs $8.99 /yr and the hosting runs $9.99/month. Right now they have a deal for a domain for $3.99 (expires 9/30) with a non-domain purchase (like webhosting.) Their webhosting comes with plenty of space for pics, etc. Sorry for the plug, but I really have enjoyed the service they've provided.
belenen ══╣analytical╠══
Re: Webhosting
yeah, I use them for domain registering, but for hosting I've found another service that I like better. ;-)
aubkabob ══╣╠══
this post touched me deeply when i first read it, and it made me speechless. i'm glad that you actually like my music enough to LISTEN to it! hee hee.

i'm so hoping to get with scrumbles and create some more things soonish. i greatly miss it and feel he and i work well together (since the music of mine that you are listening to was a conglomeration by he and me, it seems you feel the same!)

thanks again, luv.
belenen ══╣musical╠══
I luuuuv your music. ;-) And not just 'cause it's my Aubrey singing. ;-)
aubkabob ══╣╠══
passenger_no6 ══╣╠══
If you decide on hosting with Dreamhost, you might want to use 'PJG' as the promo code (entered in the fifth step of the signup process). It will give you $80 off your bill, which means that you can have their basic yearly plan (4.8GB of space, 120GB transfer, etc.) for as low as $40.
belenen ══╣analytical╠══
cool, thanks for the tip. ;-)
anar_anar ══╣╠══
You know, lately I've noticed a lot more mannequins with ribs sticking out... I remember being quite outraged. Bah. I stopped with VS and all those places when I stopped with the bras but I think... no... I'm pretty sure we've already ahd this conversation :)
Ah, and I added you on audioscrobbler :)
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
No... bras? isn't that uncomfortable? yeesh, especially on stairs!

I don't feel that I need to wear bras to be socially acceptable, but I do feel the need for them so that I can be free to jump around without discomfort! ;-)
misemifein2 ══╣╠══
It made me giggle when I read "fuckers", I had to mention it. Is because my brother uses that word a hell of a lot, and of course he says it in a scottish male accent, so I have all the rest of your posts in a mental you voice (don't know your real voice), and then there was this one word that was Calum's voice. Just sounded funny.

I don't like skinny mannequins, and I keep finding myself looking at more and more pictures of models and thinking how very ugly it is. So really it a good job I have put on weight or I would be thinking even less of myself. But I never thought it was a bad thing me putting on weight anyway, I'm delighted.

I don't think I have yet seen a shop that does have decent sized mannequins. Although I haven't been deliberatly looking out for them, I'm sure there are some.
belenen ══╣passionate╠══
oh my gosh, you have a scottish accent! I never realized that you would before. ;-D That's so cool!

Skinny mannequins I have learned to deal with -- it's seeing actual BONES poking out of a mannequin that I find disgusting. Bones don't mean beauty, they mean starvation. If those mannequins were alive they'd probably be on the brink of death. It's horrible.

One store that has gorgeous mannequins is Torrid (a plus-size store). I wanted to take one home and display it on my wall as art. ;-)
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.