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dream (youth retreat, I'm 17 and meet my 'destined-perfect' girl / I organize singing & am scolded)


I dreamed I was at a party-retreat sort of thing with a bunch of other people close to my age, and I had gone back in time to about age 17 or so. It seemed to be a spirituality-and-sexuality-celebrating retreat, and everyone was in high spirits. At first I was looking at the boys consideringly (this was before I met Ben), but none of them really appealed to me. Suddenly I thought to myself, "I should look for a girlfriend instead," and I told some of my friends who laughed and started looking for the perfect girl. There was the unspoken idea that there was a girl there who was meant for me, destined for me. I was leaning against a doorway when I felt someone pull out the back of my pants and spray whipped cream down them! I shrieked "ewwwww" and ran over to the sink to get it out, and 'the girl' was standing there holding the can, looking caught-off-guard. One of my friends was also standing around told me that she told her to do it because she thought I'd like it. I replied that I liked it when I was naked but it's gross when it gets on my clothes and gets all sticky. Then 'the girl' sprayed me with the whipped cream and I shrieked and we wrestled for a bit, trying to get it on each other. I was shocked at how easy she was to pick up, she was so light, and I thought to myself "this is totally not what I expected my perfect match to look like!" Finally we stopped and looked at each other and she said "God doesn't work by math, for sure" and when I asked what she meant, she said "I prayed, 'just don't let her have triple-Ds'." I thought to myself, 'ouch!' and looked down at my breasts, then asked why. And she said, 'because look at me!' and waved her hands at her 4'9" slender little form, and I was relieved that it was because she was afraid of comparing herself, not because she thought my breast size was ugly or something. So I started talking about how I used to compare myself to everyone, and how I had learned to see variety as beauty and no longer felt inferior to anyone, nor felt that anyone was inferior to me. I added that I was caught-off-guard by how small and slim she was, but now that I had met her, it just fit, and I loved her smallness and blondeness, and we kissed. Then someone called us outside and the dream-scene ended.

When I went outside she wasn't there anymore, it was the same place but it was as if that hadn't happened (I think because I woke up mostly when I kissed her, and then tried to force my consciousness back into the dream). We were all sitting in a long oval, and someone yelled "everybody get up and dance!" and we all jumped up and started dancing, but there was no music, so most people stopped dancing and just stood around. The few that kept dancing were singing quietly, and not in tune with each other. So I asked out loud, "are we going to sing AND dance or just dance?" several people around said 'both!' So I jumped on a chair and started belting out the only song I could think of, which was really boring and I didn't like it much and I felt uncomfortable because it was a worship song and I didn't know if this was a 'don't talk about WHICH God' type group, but it was danceable. As I was dancing (and everyone started dancing too) I floated off the chair, which was really annoying because have you ever tried to dance while floating? it doesn't work! so I kept trying to get myself to the floor, still singing. After the first verse, people started singing along, but then the leader told me to be quiet, but I hadn't finished the verse so I ignored him and finished (everyone else shut up when he said to). Then he was an ass to me and I started crying and said to the girl next to me, 'what is HIS problem?' and she said, 'you mean, what is YOUR problem with him?' and I was shocked and hurt that she would take his side, 'cause if he had waited like 30 seconds more I would have stopped. and I woke up crying and couldn't get back there. :-\

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acid_burns ══╣charlize theron / life is beautiful╠══
I was just listening to Madeleine Peyroux' Dance me to the end of love when I started reading the first half of your dream post and it made me smile so much.


"... Let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of

Dance me to the end of love..."




It just fitted so perfectly.
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
♥!
juansrx ══╣DDR1╠══
I had many dreams, with my special person, apparently on my dreams I`m always searching for her, on another one, she knows what do I feel even when she, on the real life doesn`t know a thing about, In some dreams I want to stay there forever and when I wake up I suffer...I hate when dreams do that...(baka...).

But if we don`t live on a dream, if we live on THIS reality, maybe it`s because we have something to learn, to achieve, to reach,people to help, to love, to know, to help...

Dreams sometimes are only dreams, but when a dream teach you something or *shows* you something you must be sure you got the correct message, to help yourself on your way.

Dreams are also an escape door from the bad side of reality, so dreaming isn`t good or bad(I think) but your decition about what to do, it`s the difference.

I hope you will be always happy...on dreams and reality!
belenen ══╣dreamy╠══
thank you! I wish you happiness too!
woah_the_kettle ══╣╠══
I hate when happy dreams get sad.
in_withbothfeet ══╣Gaining Courage╠══
Or they get better and better, and then you wake up.
belenen ══╣upset╠══
I KNOW!!!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
yeah :-(
girlslovegirls7 ══╣╠══
my sisys fantisy
heyya baby girl sweety pie,
i hate ot be the one to tell you this but i think your fantising about haveing a girlfriend!!!!
but i think its good to dream about things that u have wanted because it makes life easier
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.