November 2017
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AGH SO FRUSTRATED! I have been inexplicably depressed, off and on (heavy, when on), all day today! What the hell is wrong with me? Stoppit, brain! And I'm starting to get annoyed with my journal for being so freaking depressing all the time. I need to just break out of this!

In positive news: the meetup group now numbers 26 (*shock*), with at least 8 people coming to our first meeting, at 8pm on the 8th day of the 8th month. :D Some of the members seem quite enthusiastic! I was worried that no one would share my vision but several people seem to understand and agree (I'll know more when we actually meet). It's a diverse group, which is very cool. I'm so nervous! I ought to be good at this, because I'm a natural leader and I've had a good bit of practice with Curvygirls, but I'm quite intimidated. I'm afraid they'll either think I'm too sloppy or too structured :-{ *worries* Well, I'm going to "throw things out there and not be perfect and not have answers to anything and see if people understand."

I was driving around the other day and saw a woman driving behind me who looked SO MUCH like Allison. She had sunglasses on, so I couldn't tell for sure until she turned her head to the side -- it wasn't her. But it reminded me of how much I miss her... I wonder if she ever thinks of me.

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kevloid2007 ══╣╠══
26???

I can't even get 2 or 3 to show up for wings.
belenen ══╣dammit╠══
pah, well, there were 28 members, 10 said they were coming (plus 4 maybes) and only ONE showed up besides myself. *shakes head* I celebrated a little too soon!

But it was fun getting to know the one lady, and it was a huge breaking-out-of-comfort-zone for me, so it wasn't wasted, for sure.
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
26 is a good result! It will be intimidating at first but at the end you will be on a high. :) Enjoy!
belenen ══╣dammit╠══
pah, well, there were 28 members, 10 said they were coming (plus 4 maybes) and only ONE showed up besides myself. *shakes head* I celebrated a little too soon!

But it was fun getting to know the one lady, and it was a huge breaking-out-of-comfort-zone for me (I was soooooooooooo nervous!), so it wasn't wasted, for sure.
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