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pushed past communication block / lj friends whom I have dreamed of.


wow. I got WAY behind in my commenting lately. I finally got caught up with most of it today, except for the screened-comment posts. Those comments mean SO MUCH to me, so I really hope you don't feel ignored by me not commenting back -- there's just so much emotion there I am not sure I'll be able to. But every comment meant a lot to me ♥ thank you. You give me strength when I need it most. I'm really amazed at the amount of love and understanding you've given. *hugs kisses cuddles*

I feel like I've pushed past a block; I've actually been communicating! with responding to comments and IMing. (I still have a bunch of emails to respond too though, I don't know what it is about email but I always procrastinate!) SabR emailed me last week ♥ and then talked with me, and a few days ago I talked with Kazi for the first time in a long time. There's still a lot of distance there, but communication is open again which is really wonderful. And then today I had the serendipity to check my email at the exact moment that Meliae was on, and we chatted for a while, a strange combination of text chat and soundless video (because I couldn't find my mic). That was really sweet ♥ no one has ever been able to read me like she does! It takes me aback every time (and makes me wonder if that is how other people feel when I read them). I hate that she lives an ocean away, but I'm glad we're back in contact.

Lately I was thinking about all the LJ friends I've dreamed of:

Jania (dreamed she was friends with Tila Tequila and didn't remember me)
Angie (http://belenen.livejournal.com/356387.html?style=mine)
Sara (http://belenen.livejournal.com/353630.html?style=mine)
Vee (http://belenen.livejournal.com/239999.html?style=mine)
Nea (have the strong impression that I did but can't remember! I think I told you about it -- can you remind me?)
Megan (came to visit me, we discovered a second bedroom in our house) (also a different dream that I forgot :-()
Dee (came to visit me, we discovered a second bedroom in our house)
Aubrey (http://belenen.livejournal.com/188965.html?style=mine)
Kevloid (http://belenen.livejournal.com/161781.html?style=mine)
Meliae (have the strong impression that I did but can't remember!)

and of course Ben and Hannah and Kat have appeared in my dreams, and several people who used to be lj-friends but aren't now. If I mentioned dreaming about you but I didn't list you here please remind me! I like to keep track. ;-)

If you've ever dreamed of me, tell me about it here! :D

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Comments
writer_lilies ══╣╠══
Yep. I've dreamed of you. You were very cuddly in the dream. I think I was sick or sad and you just held me. I normally loathe being touched, but it didn't bother me in the dream.
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
awww *hugs*
anchasta ══╣╠══
Does it count that you dreamed MY dream? *laughs*
belenen ══╣amused╠══
*giggles*
dragonwine ══╣Addison: Srsly?╠══
You've definitely appeared in a dream of mine a while back. I find it too personal to share openly, but will tell you privately soon.

What is up with us finding second bedrooms in your house? That's something I would really like to explore with you. Were we communicating in the dream, or was it nonverbal and interpretive?
belenen ══╣dreamy╠══
oooooh, I can't wait to read it!

I don't remember the dream too clearly, just that you guys came over just as it was getting dark, and I was happy to see you but worried about where you'd sleep, and then I realized I had another bedroom in the apartment, and we all went to bed -- you guys in our current bedroom, and Ben and I in the new one that appeared out of nowhere. (it was a short snippet -- I think there was more but I can't remember it) It's weird 'cause a few nights later I dreamed that I discovered three extra floors and a ton of extra rooms here (we have a 1-bedroom teeeeeeeeny apartment!). I'm not sure what that is all about.
fionavere ══╣╠══
I just want to let you know that I'm sorry I have not commented on your more painful posts lately. I'm scraping the bottom of my own emotional barrel here recently, so sometimes it's hard to come up with encouraging words for others. I did however want you to know that I have been thinking of you, and pulling for you to get through this dark time. Also, thank you for your recommendations on the sexual ethics post. I've only read a few of them so far, but they're very interesting. I was even moved to comment on one of them, as it really rang true for me.
belenen ══╣console╠══
it's okay babe, I totally understand ♥ I'm glad you enjoyed the recommendations!
acid_burns ══╣jamie and jill / make the earth stand╠══
♥♥♥ This post made me really happy, Bel :)

I don't really ever dream and the last actual dream I can remember is a thousand years old and was about Guin Turner of all people.

Perhaps you've told me about your dream... but I can't remember. I'm terrible :( Forgive me?

::hugsyou::
belenen ══╣dreamy╠══


I think I sent it in a myspace message -- if you keep yours, could you check for me? please? It's really bugging me now that I can't remember! It's right on the edge of my memory. :-p

no need for forgiveness silly! *hugs back*
acid_burns ══╣cold case / partners in crime╠══
I just went through 91 pages of MySpace inbox messages, and I don't think it was there :(
belenen ══╣kissy╠══
awwwwww, thanks so much for checking. Maybe I dreamed that I told you, haha :D
lorelei_sakti ══╣╠══
The other night I dreamt that you invited everyone from lj to Georgia to go skiing, and I was planning to come. I don't know how we were skiing in Georgia, though. Do you live near any mountains, lol?
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