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dream (Allison doesn't recognise me) / bad news from lil sis / frustration


My year started off badly -- I woke up crying from a dream. In the dream, I saw an old friend and she saw me but didn't recognise/respond to me. I realized that I have never gotten over the loss of her -- maybe because I still don't know why she decided to cut contact. I'm still hurt over it and I'm not really sure what to do about it... I don't know how to let it go.

I also got bad news from my little sister, though that was actually New Year's Eve so technically 2007. I'm so frustrated that I can't help her.

I want a fresh start, dammit!

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dragonwine ══╣Ro' profile╠══
happy belated new year's, bella..
I'm having a few minor and unexpected setbacks myself. Reverse the sands of time, please?

xoxo
shioneh ══╣wonder╠══
Re: happy belated new year's, bella..
off topic, but I just wanted to say that I find your icon incredibly beautiful ♥
dragonwine ══╣╠══
Re: happy belated new year's, bella..
belenen ══╣╠══
Re: happy belated new year's, bella..
shioneh ══╣spiral dance╠══
I'm sorry your year started badly ♥ *hugs* I hope you are able to have positive, new and refreshing experiences to counter the painful ones at the beginning and give you the boost you need *love* I hope your sister is okay *sending her love too*.
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
*hugs back* thank you for the encouragement and the love!
celestialsight ══╣Chasing My Rainbow╠══
Any day, not just 1/01, is a good day for a fresh start. ♥
unnecessary_ ══╣╠══
I second this with all of my might.
belenen ══╣╠══
jania_monster ══╣╠══
Aww, I'm sorry. :( *a light hug*

Maybe you shouldn't try and let it go, then? maybe you shuld try and lear to live with it somehow? Accept that it will hurt when you think bout it, because you can't solve it. Perhaps that would bring you peace and finally dull the ache as well?

I hope it's nothing serious.



belenen ══╣progressing╠══
*hugs* Maybe! I need to reflect on it.
mourningdoveava ══╣╠══
Praying for you, and for your sister. ♥ Love and strength to you both.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
thank you so much ♥
acid_burns ══╣╠══

I'm thinking of you and your baby sister ♥ I truly hope everything works out for the best.

Much love ♥
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
thank you so much lovey ♥
frecklestars ══╣╠══
Oh love, I hope things start to look up.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you ♥
delicatexflower ══╣15; maroon 5 lyrics "it's not always..."╠══

*hug*

those dreams hit so close to the heart.
i'm sorry ... i hope you are able to
find peace in this difficult time. <3
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you sweetie ♥
beraht ══╣╠══
When I was about twelve, I was best friends with Jonathan and his brother Kevin who lived down the block from me. We'd walk to school every day and spent most afternoons and evenings together doing whatever but they moved away that summer and I literally had dreams about them for years afterward. I was probably in high school before I stopped dreaming about them and we wound up going to the same one but the years between had made us strangers.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
ah, I know that feeling...
bornbeautiful ══╣╠══
*hugs* There is nothing you need to do. It's normal to miss someone.

Everyday is a chance at a fresh start.

<3
belenen ══╣progressing╠══
thank you ♥
luscious_words ══╣╠══
I'm sorry to hear about the bad news from your sister and about the dream. *hugs* Lots of love and peaceful thoughts for you...but I can relate to the concept of wanting to toss the day back and getting a new one.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
thank you ♥
kevloid2008 ══╣╠══
fresh starts can happen any time.

january 2nd happens to be 'new years mulligan day'.
(okay I just invented that)

the 3rd can be national nude lawn darts day. *shrug*
belenen ══╣amused╠══
;-)
sabr ══╣╠══
There is no better time for a fresh start than...

right now :)
belenen ══╣amused╠══
amen, yo!
brighid0704 ══╣╠══
I'm sorry you received bad news. It always makes me feel so helpless whn someone tells me about something that I cannot change. All you can do for your sister is to love and support her.

As for your dream, I can totally understand why that would affect you so badly. Hugs.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
*hugs back* thank you for the comfort ♥
ohhhsweetnothin ══╣╠══
I'm sorry things didn't start out as smoothly as they could in this new flipping of the calendar, I do feel like it's going to be a good year though..hmm blind optimism, perhaps

and please pardon the random comment I hope you don't mind that I added you as a friend : )

(melissa)

belenen ══╣progressing╠══
certainly I don't mind!

and I feel it will be a good year too ;-)
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