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Hannah and I are communicating again


I have news.
big news.
very big news.

HUGE news.

Hannah and I are communicating again.

I'm still in shock really. We'd been on friendly terms since the breakup, but there was this huge wall of pain between us, and we didn't communicate in real time at all. Then a few days ago I just happened to sign in (after a long period of being anti-IM), saw Nick online, and poked him and told him to tell Hannah I love her. She was with him and responded, and we just started talking. It just flowed. Since then we've had two 4+ hour conversations and it's surreal and amazing and... wow. I haven't really processed it, so you'll probably see more on that later.

Even more amazing and insane? I'm going to visit her in a few months (depending on our tax return, positive thoughts/prayers for gazillions of money!) in Scotland! And I'm going to meet Kate, and visit Belgium, and meet Meliae! Holy crap. I've never been out of the country before (just got my passport application eek) so it is VERY SCARY and so exciting. Not to mention that we have... this... unsettledness between us. But whatever changes our friendship goes through, this will be a growing experience. I feel sure that it can't be as bad as the last visit, which was survivable and had amazing sparks of magic amongst all the thorns. Both of us are in a better place now. Plus, Nick will be there, and the energy between the three of us is just incredible.

And, this is the year of risk-taking.


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Comments
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
This is wonderful news! I'm so pleased for the both of you!

belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thanks! :D
delicatexflower ══╣06; sunflower. "still alright to smile"╠══

omg! this is GREAT news!

aww. i'm so happy for you!!

:]

*hugs*
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
yay! thank you!
phydeau ══╣╠══
I'm very happy to hear that. I hope this the beginning of something stronger, wiser, and deeper (and with any luck, easier) than it was the first time around. May this be the "butterfly" to the previous "caterpillar".
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
awww, what a beautiful analogy and wish, thank you! ♥
acid_burns ══╣╠══
So incredible, Bel ♥ Truly very happy for you ::hugs::

You should come visit me in Finland.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you ♥

I wish I could!
armandii ══╣╠══
I've just read Hannah's entry and am so happy for the both of you. I left a clumsy comment for you when you broke up and inadvertently hurt you at a time when you were very fragile which I've felt bad about since it happened. This is lovely news.
belenen ══╣console╠══
aww, babe, I'm so sorry you've felt bad about it! I had forgotten about it after I realized what you really meant -- I know you meant only good things. *hugs*
cyclops25503 ══╣╠══
Good to hear! :) Congrats :)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thanks!
jenniology ══╣Hold me╠══
I'm glad to hear about you and Hannah - and I'm also pleased to hear you might come visit Europe! :)
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
yeah! too bad you don't live close to LGW airport, I'll be stopping there for an hour and a half on my way over :-p if you feel like making the long drive for the short hour of meeting me, let me know! ;-)
suesniffsglue ══╣╠══
That's wonderful :) Congratulations, and much happy energy and luck sent your way!

That is a beautiful picture; there is so much love in it
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thank you!

♥ yes, that was a lovely day.
celestialsight ══╣╠══
That is great news! Oh and Scotland, Belgium... Lucky You! :)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thank you! :D
happystance ══╣stars╠══
that is exciting news!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
yes it is! :D
jania_monster ══╣╠══
That's excellent news for both of you. :) Congrats on building bridges. Build them strong. :)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thanks!
shadowlily ══╣summertime╠══
that's so wonderful! it makes my heart happy two such lovely people are connecting again..

may you both grow together. <3
belenen ══╣loving╠══
♥ thank you ;-)
folkchick3 ══╣╠══
How very very absolutely amazingly wonderful! Love to you both!
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thank you!
djcliche ══╣╠══
awesome. i like the picture a lot too
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thanks!
darkpool ══╣╠══
That's great!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
:D
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