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energy healing / birthday celebrating with my partner / meeting Katie!


I've had such a full week! Sunday I went to church (*pats self on back for being awake at appropriate time*) and though the service didn't really give me anything, I went for energy healing afterwards and WOW, that was amazing. There were several healers, all of whom had different styles. One person did deep breathing with me, which was intense and so relaxing. She also cleansed my aura, which was the most surreal feeling -- she made plucking motions in the air around me and I could FEEL those things being removed, almost like the feeling when someone pulls a splinter out. More of a noticing of the space it leaves behind than actually feeling the thing itself. I was really curious as to whether she was actually seeing my aura and the bits that didn't belong, or just sensing, but I didn't think to ask afterwards because I was so overwhelmed. After she finished and passed on to another person, my right shoulder suddenly started hurting. The next healer came along and without me saying anything, touched the very spot that was hurting and held it for a minute, and then it stopped hurting. He had a different method, using two fingers of each hand to lightly touch random places on my body, like the inside of my elbows, my neck, my ankles. It felt very honoring, and his energy reminded me so much of Spencer. One more person worked on me, mostly by holding her hands in certain places about three inches out from my body. She passed one hand in front of my face and I thought it was a candle, it gave off so much heat! I opened my eyes, a little concerned at why they'd be putting flame so close to me, but it was her hand! I was really awed by that. After she did the radiating-energy-into-me thing, she stood behind me and swept her fingers over my forehead, around my ears, and under my chin, with a little flicking motion at the end. I cannot describe how amazingly relieving that felt! it was like a complete massage, each time.

Then Tuesday was my 'birthday' -- (my actual birthday was pretty shitty, as I was so depressed I slept through it and most of the next day as well) my partner and I celebrated by going to all kinds of lovely places. First my partner took me by the post office to send off Hannah's very belated birthday present, and then we went to my fav Mexican restaurant and had de-licious food! Then to Hobby Lobby to get my CATGIRL POSTER which my partner ordered framing for for my Christmas present -- it looks amazing! The two workers there came out to see the poster off, heh, they both loved it. (one, named Rebecca, was hoping I'd forget about it so she could keep it, heh) Next we went to a new coffeeshop/bookstore which I found online, but that was disappointing because they had mostly pricey new books and poopyshit coffee, so we stopped by a Starbucks on our way to the next place. The car (oh yeah we have a new car btw, heh -- poor thing is still unnamed so I'm waiting to post about him) went to sleep (battery connectors got loose or something) and freaked my partner out, so he wanted to go home. But I meditated/prayed and sensed it would be fine, so he agreed to put aside his worry and we went on (and it was indeed fine). We went to this AMAZING books /crystals /magic /spiritual /fae /EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL shop called Phoenix and Dragon -- I was in serious awe. Everything was so glorious, and the energy of the place was so positive! Oh, and they had this natural-shape wooden chair which was beyond beautiful -- the most enchanting throne! And unlike most shops in that vein, they put fair prices on their items. I was too busy staring and gasping to take photos, and my partner was worried about traffic so we only stayed a minute (he promised we'd go back on Sunday, and I'll try to get some photos then).

Then we went home and I made Sylvia (my car) jewelry while he floofed around on the computer. Before the light turned we went to this tree nearby which is SO HUGE and gorgeous, so that I could take photos because I am very worried that it is going to be killed -- it's at the entrance to a new neighborhood. Earlier we passed a massacre site that used to be forest, and I started crying and felt sick to my stomach. How can they do that? Why are they so disrespectful? it is not necessary to kill everything -- you could just clear enough space, rather than destroying everything and then building on top of the wreckage. I feel so sorry for the baby trees that get planted in land imbued with such negative, destructive, selfish energy. No wonder they always look depressed -- it isn't just the exhaust they're forced to breathe.

Anyway, we went home and I finished Sylvia's jewelry and hung it in her, then went out on my own because my partner was in an odd, irritable mood. I went to Ross and found an amazing bra (that I actually like! *shock!*) and 3 tops (one of my goals this year is to decorate myself more), then went to Jo Ann Etc. and got a pattern for palazzo pants (because I recently found a seamstress, yay!) and some amaaaaaaaaaazing fabric which I am hoping to get made into a duster.

Thursday I got up early, which is miraculous in itself, and because of that I was able to get in contact with fionavere and meet her on her way through Atlanta! I drove into the city alone, which is a very big deal for me, and I didn't even get very nervous. I'm really happy about that, as it fulfilled several of my goals in one swoop -- getting more comfortable driving new places alone, making ATL more my city, and most importantly meeting an lj friend! Anyway, we had lunch/coffee together while her two little ones amused themselves (I was impressed at how well-behaved they were! and they got along so well) and the time just flew by as we talked about everything from spirituality to politics to education. The one thing I was not prepared for was how freaking gorgeous she is in person! She's a fellow curvygirls member so I've seen plenty of photos, but in person her self just shines through so much more -- she's beautiful in photos but utterly stunning in person. At the end of the lunch she invited me to come visit her in FL, which I definitely intend to do. Not sure when, but maybe as soon as April! There's just so many people I want to go visit and I don't have the funds for everyone, dammit.

hugging and smiling
me and Katie!

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Comments
gehen_kaizen ══╣╠══
pssssssstttt !!! It's Eve. *kiss*
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
hey lady! how are you? it's been FOREVER! ;-)
gehen_kaizen ══╣╠══
It has! I'm living in Atl. now, working, the usual.
tralfamadore ══╣╠══
The energy healing sounds like the most incredible experience. Your faith and belief system never ceases to amaze me with its complexity and power. You just radiate such a sense of inner peace and beauty. Even through your turmoil there is a sense of such power to pull through and overcome.

I would love to know what resources have inspired you, if you feel like writing on it sometime (or have in the past even). Books, stories, cultures. I know you've spoken of Native American animism, Christianity, and Buddhism but which? Tribes, denominations, sects? I know I'm probably asking too much, but I'm just fascinated.
belenen ══╣spiritual╠══
oh wow, what incredibly beautiful compliments ♥ thank you.

heh, you're not asking too much and I am very happy that you're so interested! There is so much that has inspired me... way too much for a comment, but this has made me want to get on with posting more about it. hm. My parents 'raised me' Christian, though I was far more passionate about it than they were. I've had visions, dreams since I was young and had a strong connection with Jesus. I've read the Bible all the way through three times and read parts of it many many times, and I feel I have a good understanding of the meaning of it. I was always more inspired by my personal connection than anyone else's statements, and so when other people's answers didn't satisfy I read for myself until I could understand... this is sounding very rambly and not too helpful, hm. I'll try to sum up.

Christianity: strong connection with Jesus the being, feel that Bible has a LOT of truth, mostly resonate with the goal: love God, yourself, and others.
Ancient Egyptian religion: always been inspired by the equality of the culture and the fact that the primary search/goal is truth personified as Ma'at, more recently been inspired by the cult of Osiris inducing NDEs, and developing a very strong connection with Nut.
Native American animism: I've always believed that all things have life, spirit, identity, and when I discovered that the Native Americans believed that I resonated very strongly. I also feel a deep and powerful connection to this land -- I may not be native in blood, but the earth knows I belong here. I don't know much about their beliefs other than the life of the inanimate, but I plan to learn more. I also have a belief in spirit animals -- not sure if it is the same as the Native Americans' belief, but it's the closest I have found so far.
Buddhism: I really strongly dislike the 'attachment is bad' concept, but there are certain aspects of Buddhism that I believe in, such as the concept that all things are connected and interdependent. and specifically Hotei, the laughing Buddha.

hopefully I will turn this into a post soon! ;-)
winternightsky ══╣╠══
That healing sounds amazing, I'd love to go to a place like that.
belenen ══╣dreamy╠══
♥ look up reiki or energy healing in your phone book! You may be able to find healers, though I doubt they would be free. ;-)
brighid0704 ══╣╠══
Happy belated birthday.
belenen ══╣amused╠══
belated thanks! :D
brightlotusmoon ══╣╠══
Happy birthday wishes!

The methods those healers use sound a lot like the methods Adam and I use. He is very, very good at radiating heat and energy, while I lean toward massaging, touching, and aura cleansing.
belenen ══╣spiritual╠══
thanks!

wow. You guys must be so wonderful to be around! I want to meet you sometime. ♥
brightlotusmoon ══╣╠══
I really want to meet you, too. Maybe one of these days when Adam has to do a job in Georgia, I can come with him. Or, you can come up to Maryland. :)
belenen ══╣ecstatic╠══
ooooooooooohhh I would love that so much! ♥ ♥ ♥
kiwi ══╣Mazel Tov!╠══
Happy belated birthday!
belenen ══╣amused╠══
belated thanks! :D
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
I'm glad you had such a good time with Katie! Meeting LJ friends is such a great thing.
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
it is! ;-)
fionavere ══╣╠══
Wow, the things you said about me in this post brought tears to my eyes, thank you very much. :) I had a wonderful time meeting you as well, and you are absolutely stunning in person too! Thank you so much for overcoming your fear of driving, most especially in the city, to come meet me! I had an absolutely wonderful time! And I gotta admit, we do look pretty good for having been standing in the middle of Taco Bell! And yay for coming to visit me!!

That healing thing sounds pretty awesome, and OMG I wanna go to that store! I haven't even seen the pictures yet but it sounds incredible!
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
awww ♥ ♥ ♥ and thank you! I had a wonderful time too :-)

haven't actually gone back to the store yet because I'm waiting until we have some money again. *shakes head* with all the major purchases lately we're running a little thin at the moment. ;-)
aetheric ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣intrigued╠══
yep, same one! and I didn't know you read tarot! *very curious*
aetheric ══╣╠══
I used to. :) I no longer do because I don't feel I should do it anymore (I haven't in many years), but I did know how and used to all the time.
belenen ══╣curious╠══
how come you feel you shouldn't do it any more, if you don't mind saying?
aetheric ══╣╠══
I don't mind at all. :) I feel that I should trust life, my intuition and the universe (i.e. God) instead of trying to divine my way through life. I used it as a crutch too often in the past, when I very well knew in my heart what the right thing to do was, if that makes any sense.
belenen ══╣spiritual╠══
ah yes, that makes perfect sense. ♥
delicatexflower ══╣36; drew. ever after - "courage"╠══

wow. that sounds so lovely... i don't think people
realize how much healing a "touch" can do! it's so
amazing ... i know whenever i feel my boyfriend hold
me, i feel like i'm FLOATING in the air. and, i'm not
being dramatic here =P

glad you experienced something so wonderful!
belenen ══╣inspired╠══
aww, that sounds so lovely ♥ I'm glad you have such a sweet boyfriend!

*hugs!*
rockstarjoker4 ══╣╠══
sounds like you had a good time. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself.

There's alot of development out here. When I was young, there were orange groves everywhere, and now, there are barely any orange trees. It makes me sad to know that so many beautiful trees are getting destroyed to make room for big huge UGLY houses.

Congrats on the new car, and driving to Atlanta! I've only driven there once, and I have to admit, it was a little scary for me!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thanks!

yeah... the saddest part is that they could have left some of them! it wasn't even necessary to go slaughtering all of them. :-(

thanks! it was a little scary but I didn't go into the heart of it so it wasn't TOO overwhelming ;-)
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