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I'm going across the ocean


Depart Tue, May 27 05:15p Atlanta Hartsfield-Jackson Intl Apt, US (ATL)
Arrive Tue, May 27 07:30p Philadelphia International Apt, US (PHL)

Depart Tue, May 27 09:00p Philadelphia International Apt, US (PHL)
Arrive Wed, May 28 09:00a Glasgow International Apt, GB (GLA)

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Depart Sat, Jun 21 09:05a Glasgow International Apt, GB (GLA)
Arrive Sat, Jun 21 10:30a London Gatwick Apt, GB (LGW)

Depart Sat, Jun 21 12:30p London Gatwick Apt, GB (LGW)
Arrive Sat, Jun 21 03:50p Philadelphia International Apt, US (PHL)

Depart Sat, Jun 21 05:35p Philadelphia International Apt, US (PHL)
Arrive Sat, Jun 21 09:20p Atlanta Hartsfield-Jackson Intl Apt, US (ATL)

if you're in London or Philly and you wanna meet me in the wait between flights, just let me know; I'd love to make that time matter!


86 days until I see Hannah again


I go tomorrow morning to get my passport. *eeeeek!* I find this very very scary, but "ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is a freedom" -- Marilyn Ferguson. Somebody pinch me? am I really going on such a long journey alone? wow. Going so far away from my safety net is scary enough. Add in staying with Hannah and Nick, meeting Kate and Meliae... this is insanely thrilling and nerve-wracking. *shiver*

This risk-taking thing hasn't brought many external changes yet, but it has brought on a radical internal shift. Instead of seeing fears as walls to be accepted and ignored, I see them as doors, locked (to be picked open) or just stuck (to be broken down). I'm much more aware of my opportunities, more appreciative. I like this new evolution.

please send me calming energy if you can, I need to get up early and I'm worried that I won't be able to sleep for fear of missing the appointment *is insane*

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Comments
kschap ══╣╠══
I'm so jealous that you're going to Scotland. I'd love to go there. You have to promise to post pictures! (although pictures from you is probably a given! hehe)

Good luck with the passport appointment!!
belenen ══╣selfportraiture╠══
oh, definitely there will be pictures! probably a dozen gigs of them! (not all will be posted, heh)

thanks for the luck! ;-)
acid_burns ══╣╠══
Bel, the stepovers between your flights are really short. I hate to tell you this but chances are that you won't be having time for meet ups. It's just not physically possible.

Aside for that, I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR YOU! :) Good luck with the passport appointment. YAY! Europe! :) ♥


belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
yeahhh, I figured as much but thought what the hell, might as well find out!

YAY! :D
desert_rose ══╣╠══
*hugs* and well done for taking that plunge!! This is a huge step to take, but it sounds like it is a trip you are ready for!

Where are you going?

I have never left the country either, but have decided that the first big goal I will set for myself is to travel overseas. I'm really nervous about doing it for several reasons, but the main one is that flying scares me.

Hopefully it will all go well!

Take care, and only do as much as you feel you are up to!
belenen ══╣wanderlust╠══
to Glasgow, Scotland!

good luck to you too! *shares nervousness*
armandii ══╣╠══
I'm happy and excited for you, it will be a wonderful experience. I will be in Italy when you are here so no chance of meeting up this time. Incidentally, the beautiful, beautiful earrings you made me arrived today - I made a photo post. Thank you so much :-)
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
aww, oh well! we'll meet up some day ;-)
nokturnel ══╣╠══
That'll be such a great experience. I can't imagine doing that by myself though! I've never even been on a plane before. I've never been outside the US actually...I think it's a bit depressing. Good for you for getting the courage to do something like this alone! I don't think I could.
belenen ══╣eccentric╠══
thanks for the encouragement! I'm nervous, but SO excited!
shioneh ══╣tenderness╠══
*squees*

♥ AwBel, I am so full of admiration and love towards you for the risk both emotional and physical that you are taking in flying over an ocean visit and coming to visit me and Nick ♥ I'm so overjoyed that you're internally shifting. It's beautiful and so very inspiring to me.

*encompassing restful soft violet soothing energies* Sleep little one, if you can, I have faith you can get up early.

Maybe meditate on it before going to sleep, that helps me wake up often? And for safety, set more than one alarm? And maybe you could organize for ben to call you if he's going to be out to make extra sure you wake up?

*heart swells with true happiness*
armandii ══╣╠══
shioneh , this icon is SO BEAUTIFUL!
shioneh ══╣doting╠══
♥ ooh, thankyou so much :-) I love it very much also.
belenen ══╣giggling╠══
thanks! (I made it hee hee)
belenen ══╣osculant╠══
*hugs five times* I'm happy that you recognise the risk -- it feels like such a big deal, it's good to have it validated.

♥ ♥ ♥!
flyingshaman ══╣╠══
Breathe.

Fears can also be wonderful nuggets of opportunity to self-acceptance and a greater sense of relationship with others, as well as furthering a relationship of divine order with the universe.

Just let them be. Allow them to sit with you and tell you their story. Given room, a chance to breathe, they will help you in understanding more about yourself, and in learning and realizing how boundless you really are.

As well as, perhaps, some guides or inspiration.

Fears are there to help us, dear Bel, not necessarily to hurt us unless we choose to ignore or resist them. They show us how to let ourselves grow, to see an ocean of despair as a water of creativity, of a forest as a single, loveable tree by which we can climb the rest of the way.

Breathe with your trees, dear Bel, breathe with them. Tell them your fears, whisper them your songs, your wings, your hopes and dreams. You are ok.

The future rests in your hands. Do with it what you will. Don't let the trip itself all overwhelm you. Think babysteps. Babysteps all the way. Breathe, bring something to comfort you, or many things. Things which help to relax you, and breathe.

Let the winds take you to who you most want to meet. Allow the attraction, that core in your veins, to bring you what you most want. What you believe that you deserve to have. You are bringing them as much to you as they are bringing you to them. This is the way of the world, it's always so.

And most of all, laugh! Let this be a journey of wonder and spell binding excitement.
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
yes! wonder and excitement! ;-)
lorelei_sakti ══╣╠══
I'm so excited for you! I hope you have a lovely trip!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
thanks! :D
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
breathe deep, baby ;)
belenen ══╣amused╠══
*breathes deep* :D
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
Again! and every day!! it's good for ya ;)
rockstarjoker4 ══╣╠══
congratulations! It's so great that you're beginning to feel this shift in perception, getting out of your comfort zone, and reconnecting with hannah! You better believe i'm sending you all the calming and positive energy i can muster! Have a great trip!!!
belenen ══╣kissy╠══
thanks so much for the encouragement and calming energy, it worked! :D
bellerisa ══╣arquel: dance Angel╠══
Oh you'll only have 2 hours at Gatwick so we'll probably only have enough time to shake hands before you have to start boarding the plane to Philly!

It's fantastic that you're making this trip though. I remember that feeling of excitement and fear as I prepared for my trip to New York - a buzz!!
belenen ══╣eccentric╠══
yeah, I'm half sad for the short stops, and half happy! it's such a long flight that I'd probably be too burnt to meet anyone on the stopovers anyway ;-p
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