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poll: desires, goals, obstacles.


what additions would make your life (even) better? (if you are very content, dream big)

what thing in your life would you like LESS of?

what is your most pressing or important goal right now?

what do you see as your primary obstacle(s) right now?


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my answers:

what additions would make your life (even) better?
     ---nearby friends! (within a 30-min drive) or my tribe living nearby. Or hey, having the money to fly all over the damn place -- that'd be almost as good.
what thing in your life would you like LESS of?
     ---less stress for Nimajn :-( Ze is under a lot of pressure right now, and it tends to be a block because it takes so long for zir to relax and connect with me. We overcome it... but it would be fantastic not to have that block there.
what is your most pressing or important goal right now?
     ---developing my relationships (especially with my inner tribe), and finding a way to express my spirituality/creativity in a continuous flow.
what do you see as your primary obstacle(s) right now?
     ---DISTANCE. Also, motivation/freedom to create. My mind is so FULL and I have so many ideas/inspirations but I haven't followed through on most of them, lately. I think it will resolve itself when my life slows down, so I am not too worried, but I really look forward to actually DOING all of the brilliant beautiful things in my mind.


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opheliasxflower ══╣╠══
what additions would make your life (even) better?

Better hearing
Confidence
More friends

what thing in your life would you like LESS of?

Anxiety
Fear in general

what is your most pressing or important goal right now?

Managing my hearing loss and looking into BAHA implants (procedures, costs, etc.)

what do you see as your primary obstacle(s) right now?

Communication - learning how to talk to people and ask for clarification without being afraid that the person I am speaking with will become irritated if I don't understand, either because I do not understand the words or I do not understand how to do something
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thanks for sharing! ♥
shioneh ══╣extracting╠══
I'm answering here because my answers are too long, hah:

What additions would make your life (even) better? (if you are very content, dream big)

-- a stronger sense of confidence and of 'having a right' to occupy whatever space I occupy as a person. More self-respect, more being vocal. An increased sense of self-trust and oneness within myself, a more healed relationship with myself resulting in me being more accepting of myself in the moment, less anxiety, more flexibility more play!

-- like you, nearby friends! people to connect with regularly in person and grow with, share love and have adventures and glee with! I would LOVE to be living close to you. ♥

-- For photography school to be possible so that I can focus my energies on growing creatively and on doing something that truly makes my heart feel connected and allows me to 'play more'.


What thing in your life would you like LESS of?

--less academic stress, less outmoded self-imposed rules ;-) less anxiety, less panicking.

What is your most pressing or important goal right now?

--healing my relationship with myself and
developing and exploring my close relationships, basically opening up to me and opening up to others at a rate that is stretching but not too painful. Also, exploring my spirituality, finding ways to connect with the 'universe'/life-force more.

What do you see as your primary obstacle(s) right now?

--If I boil it down, then it's my fear, my tendency at the moment to panic and close off emotionally. Also, my tendency at the moment to try to rush past pain and my tendency to think I will be attacked if I let myself feel pain.

belenen ══╣veneration╠══
I love and share so many of your desires! *nuzzle*

you are overcoming!
shioneh ══╣totem animal: owl╠══
addendum!
thanyou for saying that my darling ♥ *nuzzles back*

I thought of another thing that I would really love more of in my life, it's a little thing but it's rather important. I really crave more animal contact in my life (especially with horses, cats, dogs or birds of prey) Contact with plants and trees is incredibly important but I am able to get that quite easily but contact with animals is a really important thing for my heart and for my sense of calm and I don't have that at all at the moment. I would love to be able to volunteer in a rescue center or be able to visit animals or have a friend with animals. I would love to be able to adopt a cat or a dog but at the moment it is not possible. Either way I would like to have more animal presence in my life.

:-)
belenen ══╣kanika kitty╠══
Re: addendum!
mmm, yes. I remember life without a pet -- it feels very empty, for me. Even though Kanika is not very cuddly, I am much happier with zir around.

Volunteering at a rescue center sounds AMAZING! very healing, I think. Are you planning on looking into that?
shadowlily ══╣jasmine╠══
i'd love friends nearby, as well. there's an easiness to presence, and my wishes are simple as a shared cup of tea or someone to turn cartwheels with ;) (but a someone i feel connected to. and i don't form connections easy, in realspace.. i'd like to get better!)
belenen ══╣connate╠══
yessss. I think it is much harder face to face, because you cannot see a person's inner self so easily. And also, awake people are just plain rare :-p Still, I am determined to have it happen somehow, and I wish the same for you also!
kschap ══╣╠══
On the creative stuff: yes. I have a lot of very rich, vivid imagery in my head that either just happens to me (usually right before I fall asleep), or that's conjured up by music. I'm a bit frustrated though because I don't know how I'd *express* this stuff. Ideally I'd be a filmmaker but I have little experience and it seems kind of daunting. :)
belenen ══╣hopeful╠══
ooooooooohh, I think that would be so fantastic. You strike me as someone who would make brilliant films!
musicwench ══╣╠══
my answers are quite materialistic -- but I think the reason for that is that my life is really quite satisfying on the whole -- I'm happy with my family, my work, my hobbies and my friends. And as a practical matter since I'm the breadwinner now and a new mom I need to work on my spending/saving habits. And it'd be fun to have an acre of land for Ty to grow up on and play baseball on, but I'm pretty happy that that's my only want.
belenen ══╣intrigued╠══
thanks for sharing, and for the further explanation! ;-)
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