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sex is its own intricate language


Until this year, my partner was the only lover I had ever had, and so a lot of my thoughts on sex came from the sex I've had with zir. I'd forgotten what it was like at the beginning, tentative and strange -- such a novel thing, so unlike anything else in life (or maybe a heaven-flavored swirl of everything that exists?).

Becoming lovers with Aurilion has taught me (or perhaps reminded me) that sex is its own intricate language -- a language created between two people as they learn the rhythms, desires, responses of each other. It's watching the shivers caused by my touch, listening to the pace of my lover's breath, feeling zir heat rise -- a constant dance of asking and answering, "this?" "yes" "this?" "no" "this?" "oh yes." With my partner I am fluent; with Aurilion I am just learning to speak. This formation of sensual language is such a thrilling adventure... I only wish I had more time to weave it.

The miles between us are a constant pull on my heart.

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manifestress ══╣╠══
what a beautiful post!
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
thank you!
acid_burns ══╣you're an angel underneath it all╠══
So beautiful.
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
♥ ♥ ♥
adamantplatypus ══╣╠══
A lot of people strangely (to me) admit they like the "newness" of first kisses and first time with a new partner. When things get routine, they claim they miss the exhilaration of "newness" and wish they could have it back.

Not me. I like the familiarity that's learned with someone, knowing what buttons to push and when.

Don't get me wrong - you have to start new with a partner you've never been with and that exploration is great, but I wouldn't trade the resulting familiarity and being fluent in that language - as you say - for anything.


I guess what I mean to say is enjoy the journey, because when you arrive at the destination, it will only be that much more meaningful and incredible.
belenen ══╣interconnectedness╠══
yeah! I think both familiar and new sex is amazing, and I am soooooooo lucky to have both, heh.
tralfamadore ══╣Two in bed╠══
Such a beautiful entry. I haven't spoken much of what is happening in my love life because I'm sure it would be met with disdain from most people who know me, but the truth is that I am in love with a woman who is committed to a man. More than that, he asked her to marry him this weekend. She tells me that she loves me (but "differently") and that she does desire me romantically. She talks of wanting to kiss me and desires to be "with" me. It's strange and awkward and beautiful and painful all rolled into one. I'm upside-down and not at all certain of what to do with myself. And I know I won't do anything because she has not told him about me. I don't know why this is, but I think she's afraid to lose him. It's not worth the risk to her. So things are incredibly difficult. But god I love her.

And the distance, oh lord I know about the distance.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
ohhh, wow, that sounds so difficult :-( I'll keep you in my thoughts/prayers! ♥
jenniology ══╣Love - Sayid nuzzle╠══
Awww. Your metaphor made me smile. <3 Beautiful post.
belenen ══╣kissy╠══
aww! :D
phoenixdreaming ══╣heart╠══
You describe this so beautifully.
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
thank you ♥
tindomerel ══╣blue butterfly╠══
Oh, it's true. A fascinating language you need to create. Sometimes I think love and passion make it work naturally but there is still many things to learn.
belenen ══╣connate╠══
yes! ♥
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
What a fantastic way of expressing this! Sex really is its own language. :)
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
yay! glad you agree!
painted_dreams ══╣lady╠══
One of the main reasons that I have never treated sex so capriciously is that it is so much more then the pleasure. I feel that the most incredible sex is with someone that you share a connection with.

Sex is just the part of the journey.
There is always something new to learn even on the familiar path. One of my favorite writers said that when all the senses are heightened one can find enlightenment through sex.
belenen ══╣voltaic╠══
it is so much more then the pleasure

yesssss exactly! ♥
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