February 2018
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argument with my partner, depression, resolution, scribbling down.


For whomever might be wondering where the second part of that post is, it's still in the making. After I wrote that post, went to sleep and woke up, my partner and I had this major discussion that made me extremely upset because I felt like ze was turning against me (which led to a major realization which I hope to post about soon), and after a lot of talking (and crying, on my part), ze got too tired to talk more and went to bed. I tried to go to bed but couldn't sleep despite being mentally/emotionally exhausted, and then the next day couldn't get up because I had had only a little, bad sleep. AND THEN we went to my favorite Mexican restaurant and I was so depressed I lost my appetite for MEXICAN FOOD. This has never happened to me -- I didn't even know it COULD happen. I brought home the whole damn meal. We then talked and talked about The Issue, and ze mentioned that ze had talked to someone earlier the day of the argument, and that person had said things that my partner didn't have a response for, so ze asked me. That made a huge difference because then it wasn't my partner just randomly getting a personality transplant (which is what it felt like), it was someone else's concerns (about me) which my partner was looking to me for answers to. It hurt so much because I felt like I was really getting to know zir, and then this out-of-character thing happened and I thought I had been wrong all before. Now I feel happy about our relationship again, which is a huge relief from the agony I'd been in since evening Sunday.

Bleh. Sorry this isn't more in-depth or readable, I just feel like getting this down because I have a bad habit of skipping over these things and this time I want to remember. I want to write more about the relationship between my partner and I because it is (obviously) a big part of my life.

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Comments
flyingshaman ══╣╠══
I had the weirdest random dream of you texting me at 8am.. Wow.

And also, I'm glad to hear that things are working out, though *HUGE HUGS* because I know it was a difficult time for you.
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
*hugs you tightly!*
jendaby ══╣╠══
**hugs**
belenen ══╣console╠══
*hugs back*
jenniology ══╣Hold me╠══
*hugs muchly*
belenen ══╣console╠══
*hugs back*
tindomerel ══╣╠══
*hugs*
Sometimes it happens even with people who are soulmates. But I guess it only means defining limits, learning to know each other better.. also at times people think they know each other but certain things may still be based more on their own doupts & shadows than who the person really is.
belenen ══╣console╠══
*hugs back* thank you for the kind words ♥
diepunyhuman ══╣gentle╠══

As long as it makes sense to you.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
frecklestars ══╣cutest╠══
Many hugs have been sent your way, dearheart. Here are a few more (and also a cute icon, to hopefully make you smile, even a little bit)
belenen ══╣console╠══
thank you ♥ and awww ;-)
biznessman_alfa ══╣esmeralda╠══
i'm sending tons of hugs to you. i hope you guys continue to always get everything worked out.
belenen ══╣console╠══
thank you so much ♥
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
*hugs*
belenen ══╣console╠══
*hugs back*
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