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burning ritual -- letting go of the pain/negativity of 2009 and embracing the blessings of 2010


I did this two years ago and it was transformative -- I feel that it was one of the main reasons that 2008 was such an amazing year for me. 2009 certainly brought me a lot of beauty and joy (and I intend to write about that), but it also brought me pain that cut deeper than any I've felt since I was working through sexual abuse. I am going to move past this; I am going to heal; I am going to have faith and trust again. Writing this out and burning it is my statement to the universe that this pain is not going to remain with me.







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the bits that were refusing to burn -- being untouched, being left out of 'family' photos, having the best of me treated with disgust, and not being trans enough.

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the last bit, the last burn (I didn't take any of just the ashes).

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and looking forward...


I'm so grateful and excited about the incredible, stunning, thrilling, wildly beautiful year ahead.

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Comments
theindiequeen ══╣╠══
I love, love, love this entry.
verviana ══╣╠══
::hugs:: I'm proud of you.
saturnsdaughter ══╣Lady Gaga╠══
This sounds like it would be very therapeutic. I'm not sure I could get away with burning something in our apartment, but I'd like to do something similar.
acid_burns ══╣╠══

Very proud of you ♥
austentatious ══╣╠══
I'm really happy that you decided to do this. It looks very powerful and spiritual and I'm glad that you're embracing that this year. :)
frecklestars ══╣contemplative╠══
I ought to start doing this again. Burning/release rituals were some of the most beautiful.
tangledaxon ══╣╠══
How powerful. Beautiful.
burningmarl ══╣╠══
that seems like a really positive step
delicatexflower ══╣hope. buddha. "laughing buddha"╠══

this is the step in the right direction. i like how you wrote out the good and the bad. i'm so inspired by you :) ♥
divinemiss_em ══╣╠══
This is beautiful, Bel! You burned some really powerful things and I hope that this year brings you all the bliss and joy and ecstasy that your body can handle!!
I felt extremely hurt because on new years eve when I was back in Louisiana, and I had many of my friends and loved ones around me, I suggested doing a burning ritual. It was something that I felt I really wanted and needed to do. None of my kin were interested in it, really or at least those who were weren't vocal enough about it. I feel like I let my light dim intentionally and that I should have been strong enough in who I am and what I want to have done it anyway.
Thank you for reminding and inspiring me to do it NOW for myself!
xx
lorelei_sakti ══╣╠══
I should try this. I have too much pain that I can't let go of.
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