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visiting Red Top with Wade, photos! / Wade's energy and our connection / touch and boundaries


Last Tuesday I went out with Wade -- we went walking at Red Top Mountain (and I got some photos which were SO amazing that I want prints!) and talked about everything and kissed a lot and I wish I'd written about that day right afterward because it has blurred since then :-/ But I remember that ze laughs when happy (not just with amusement) which I LOVE and which is pretty rare and which all of my current love-interests do :D (though it confuses me with new people because I'm so not used to it!) And ze laughs with wild abandon when amused (we watched a very silly but somehow awesome movie -- "Yes Man"). And when I reach for cuddles ze responds instantly and exactly the same amount -- to this perfect balance that is really fun to find. Usually people respond with just a little less and occasionally with more, and those two feel really different. I've never hit a perfect balance before. And it's not just the intensity, it's the tone. I wish I could explain it better.







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Wade noticed this serpent and pointed it out to me -- I wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings at first, heh, just focused on holding hands and being in the forest and talking/listening ♥ (I want to be a snake and sleep in a tree!)

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Wade asked to use my camera and to my surprise I let zir (I'm a bit overprotective of my camera and usually won't let other people touch it) -- ze directed me to peer through the tree and took this ;-)

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you can't tell from this photo but that mushroom was iridescent!

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Wade! whose hair is down to zir waist, preeeetty. (f-locked because I haven't yet asked if I can share photos of zir)

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I LOVE this one.

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I find wild arches to be so magical (though they never photograph well)

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♥!

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am quite proud of this one.

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*snuggles up* (this is my new desktop)

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Zir energy is really strange to me, impossible to put into words. I told zir that ze was mysterious to me, which is very unusual -- usually if someone mystifies me it's because they're guarding but Wade really isn't. Ze's open but... very twisty? I can't squint and see through the trees, I have to just follow the path to see what is next. I feel some kind of ethereal connection but I have no idea what it is. Yet. However, I did sense one of zir spirit shapes VERY strongly -- ze is such a tiger, ohmygod.

Touch-wise, Wade is initiatory while also being very respectful -- ze pays close attention to my reactions and asks questions if unsure of zir interpretation. (and Anita does the same thing!) I'm so not used to that! I try to stay very aware of my feelings and express them clearly, but it makes it so much more relaxing and safe-feeling when the other person looks for my boundaries. 'Cause it takes a good bit of energy for me to be aware of my own boundaries body-wise since touch makes me high and then I find it hard to be aware of more than sensation&connection and my boundaries are not walls, they're membranes -- they can be pushed without being broken (but if I let that happen too much it will trigger me so I try to guard them).

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Comments
writer_lilies ══╣Shiny Ban!╠══
Awww! So you have a thing for long hair on guys too or does he just happen to have long hair?

I love these pictures. I saved the first one and the magical arch. That snake looks very comfortable. Most people would've wet themselves. I went 'splodey. But then I'm odd like that.

I want someone to walk through the pretty forest with. ;_;
frecklestars ══╣freedom╠══
As always, your photos convey a perfect sense of summer. And that snake! So gorgeous! I keep trying to identify it, but given that I can't see its' head and I'm not a supreme expert on identifying snakes, I should probably give up. lol
darkpool ══╣╠══
Very nice pictures.
divinemiss_em ══╣╠══
Your photos are absolutely stunning- the colors are so vibrant and it feels like I can reach out and touch the textures.
I want to lounge in that luscious grass :)
charlotteattack ══╣╠══
I love the one where you are peeking! :)
smurfb1ue ══╣╠══
What a magical place! It makes me want to take off my shoes and settle in for awhile. The picture you let Wade take of you is lovely. You look so happy and at home.
delicatexflower ══╣happy. "the earth laughs in flowers"╠══

ooh! i love the one of you peaking over! :D to get a small glance at your new buzz cut makes me giddy with excitement! i can't wait to see more! :)
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