February 2018
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heavy worry


I am so stressed out right now. I'm not even sure why -- yes, money worries and nerves about my interview tomorrow are part of it, but why would that worry suddenly explode into obsessive thoughts and nausea/weakness from stress? Suddenly the things that I have to be concerned about have each expanded into massive looming worries, and I feel so lonely. I don't want to sleep alone. I don't know where this is coming from but it's so heavy I've no idea what to do with it.

If you can and are willing to, please send me some calm energy and love.

ETA: thank you so much, loves ♥ I finally was able to fall asleep with the calm/love you sent, and worked it out in dreams. I think I was picking up on other people's worry -- two people I know and one stranger that I saw last night and kept having the urge to go up and express concern to, but didn't (:-/). I feel much better now (back to mild stress, not overwhelming stress, heh).

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clown_frog ══╣╠══
*Waves of energy and love* This will pass, and the interview at least will be over soon! It may not be a cause of such heaviness, but its one less trigger (and good luck!)

Thinks.

*Sends spirit-type cuddle person to sleep beside you*
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
thank you so much, lovey ♥ I think I was picking up on other people's worry but I worked it out in dreams (after you and the other wonderful people sent me enough love/calm to fall asleep). *snuggles you*
radiantbaby ══╣dr who -- eleven/amy | gotcha╠══
*hugs*
belenen ══╣giving╠══
*hugs back*
frecklestars ══╣magic horse╠══
Breathe breathe breathe! You'll be all right. You will kick ass at the interview (and if they decide they don't want you, they don't deserve you). The money troubles will sort out. I wish you didn't have to sleep alone, and I can't change that other than to say that you will not always sleep alone. Calm, my dear. Calm. *hughughug* Much love.
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
thank you so much, Kay ♥ your calm/love really helped *squeezyhugs!*
jenniology ══╣Hold me╠══
*more hugs*
belenen ══╣giving╠══
*hugs back*
acid_burns ══╣ta/ never was a cornflake girl╠══
::hugsyou:: ♥
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
thank you lovey ♥ *hugs back*
shadowlily ══╣bubbles╠══
:soft hugs: you're not alone in spirit, Bel.
belenen ══╣giving╠══
thank you, wild-kin ♥
divinemiss_em ══╣╠══
energy and love sent your way!
belenen ══╣giving╠══
thank you so much!
phoenixdreaming ══╣heart╠══
I'm so glad you're feeling better <3 I was thinking of you today and trying to get into a "sending good energy" state. I seem to have forgotten how to, though, over-rationalise it these days.
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