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realization: I need group intimacy as well as one-on-one


icon: "pensive (photo of me with a glitter goatee, looking down pensively with woods in the background)"

realized yesterday that I was craving intimate time with multiple people simultaneously in person. I'm not sure if it has actually been a while since I've had this? it feels like it. I've had casual time with multiple people and intimate time one-on-one, but last intimacy practice was like a month ago and I think that was the last time I had in-person group intimacy. But it could be because I'm finally appropriately medicated yet no longer spending all my energy on school, so I actually have time/energy to reflect on what is causing my feelings.

I didn't even realize I had a need for this but yeah, I do. I've been feeling a weird kind of lonely that doesn't go away from anything else. So I made a plan w Heather and Kylei and Topaz to have a sleepover and I can't wait. I think that I need specifically this for two reasons: 1) it is a broad kind of love (that many people associate with 'family' which I have nearly never experienced in biofamily situations) which brings its own nourishment, and 2) only by spending time with mutual intimates can I be deeply nourished by seeing one person's love for another. and I think maybe 3) flowing back and forth in my focus from person to person makes me feel a harmony and unity I can't feel otherwise.

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wanderipity ══╣╠══
Im not very fond of my blood relatives, but so glad we can choose our friends. <3 Although I need more friends, haha.
delicatexflower ══╣MISC-glowfairywings╠══

^^ pretty much what you friend said here! we can't pick our family, but we can pick our friends. sometimes we get so caught up with life, it's ups and downs, sometimes even in our heads.. we forget we are human and we need to feel loved and needed. i don't think that is a bad thing. i think if you have time every other day you should snuggle/cuddle/hug a loved one. it makes a huge difference. i hope you have a lovely sleepover <3
lilywolfsolomon ══╣╠══

Intimate time with multiple people feels really good to me, like my energy can flow where it wants, and has options!

webgirluk ══╣pic#124969441╠══
I love how deeply you feel with your relationships and connections. I would love to have friends who I could do sleepovers with in a group or even just more "in person" connection in general.
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