October 2017
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letter from Michael B / Allison / am I boring?


I got an email (in response to the "I'm deleting this address so change your books" email, at the supposedly deleted address) from Michael today...

Kristen,
How are you girl. It's been a long time since we have talked. I hope you and yours are well. I'm doing alright. Living in a new apt. near campus and trying to still get over the girl. It wont happen but I still live and try now don’t I. I'm reading and writing a lot more these days. I work for dominos pizza as a driver and school is about to start for me.
I've had a good summer full of seeing people and getting ready for school. I also turned 21 last july. Well I just wanted to write to you cause it's been a while, and in my opinion far too long.

Michael

I really jinxed myself with that birthday reminder thing. I've missed every birthday since I started getting the reminders. (even Spencer's!)

I miss Michael. We were so close in high school, and now we hardly ever communicate. I wish I had gotten to hang out with him some this summer... he's one of my favorite people, 'cause he is so incredibly himself; he doesn't try to fit with any particular group. I need to be better about keeping in touch with him.


With Allison, I'm a little hurt and a little offended, 'cause despite my tries, she hasn't managed to spend one afternoon with me all summer. I realize she has a busy schedule, but there's no change in her pocket for me? I'm sure it has somewhat to do with the fact that I've been fairly car-less... but still. One day of going out of her way would have meant so much to me. (I'm not forgetting how wonderful she has been in the past -- she was the only one who helped me pack before I got married and moved in with Ben) Why drop me?

Well, Kristen B. accused me of becoming boring since I got married -- maybe that's why. I don't think I got more boring, but I'm on the inside of me. *shrug* I'll be as wild as a waterstar one day -- both inside and out.


I'm nervous about counseling tonight...

feelings: anxious
connecting: ,

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Comments
anar_anar ══╣╠══
What ? Boring since you've gotten married ? I never knew you before you were married, however, only knowing you through the internet WHILE married, I still think you are quite interesting. Perhaps she is just frustrated with not being able to spend more time with you since you're married ?
jedibubbles ══╣╠══
I'm just going to have to custom post my respose to this, because not only is it too long to put in a comment, despite both our needs to be "open" it's too fucking brutal for me to put where everyone can read it.
jedibubbles ══╣╠══
never mind. I wrote it and it was up for 7 hours, but I feel better about it this morning and you don't need to be subjected to all that so now it's "private." If you really want to read it, I'll let you, but be warned that you picked the wrong fucking night to post this.
jedibubbles ══╣╠══
and uh, heh, um, if you want me to call you, zen zat vould requieeere your phone numbeeear, as I no longer haz eet, because you move-ed, you silly silly girl! ^_6
belenen ══╣╠══
Yes, I would like to read it. If it holds your true feelings than I want to know what it says. And if I have messed up I'd like to know so I can make amends.

Calling isn't necessary -- you can always email me, drop me an LJ comment or leave a message at the Snows'.
jedibubbles ══╣╠══
But I'd really rather talk to you, you know. And it was my true feelings at the moment, but we're talking the cold dark tea-time of Allison's soul, here. So just keep in mind that I was in a very black mood that night...okay...here goes...*unlocks it just for Bel*
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