November 2017
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Breakthrough


Breakthrough to Joy didn’t move me much this time, but at the end we prayed through the wounding of rejection, and I felt something stir in my soul. I’ve always struggled with that, and I am believing that renouncing it has helped me. Even with my close friends, for a long time I wondered, “Do they really want my company or are they just being nice?” And I’ve had a fear of intruding, where I’m afraid to help even if it looks like someone really needs it, because they might get mad at me for intruding. I know that was taught by my family. I HATE that, it is so not me. The real Kristen would never be afraid, she’d say that the possibility of helping someone was worth the risk.

feelings: indifferent
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