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yesterday's feelings/ random bampard


Yesterday, when I found out about the car thing, it just broke me... I suppose I was really fragile and didn't notice... anyway, my deep despair feelings weren't in proportion to the events, and I'd think about the actual events and how it was not the end of the world, and I'd wonder why my heart was hurting so badly... I'm still not sure why, and I still have a parts of those feelings cluttering my heart. There's something subconsciously painful; maybe I'm working through some stuff subconsciously. Anyway...

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A week from today is my 2nd birthday -- I'll be 6 years old! *dances* Ha ha, Christians get to have two birthdays! ;-)

Oh yeah, the night I decided to throw myself whole-heartedly into following God was a full moon, on a Friday the 13th, very close to midnight, with a black cat in the room! 'Cause my God talks to me in ways that would scare fundamentalists.

feelings: ambivalent

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Comments
genesiskenshin ══╣╠══
Well you know I keep up with you. So if it is all right with you, I will keep reading.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
yeah, it's fine. I meant non-lj real life friends.
tinystages ══╣╠══
sorry about your car. :( but awesome that you've had God for 6 years!!! :)
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thanks!
smurfb1ue ══╣╠══
Happy early birthday! Probably the best of the two. I hope GOD works in your life in incredible ways for your sixth birthday.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Thank you!
tribbleations ══╣╠══
Hi. I'm gonna read your journal. Found you via anonymousx's friends list.
Mostly I added you for some balance to my friends list. Most of my friends are rabidly liberal. It gets too easy for me to demonize the other side when not exposed to intelligent people like you from over there.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Fine with me: but I should warn you that I very rarely post political stuff... I don't like pointless debate, and you can't make people research their 'facts', unfortunately.

and thank you for the compliment! ;-)
phrankenstyne ══╣╠══
Keep on keepin on, Bel. I'm still reading even if I don't comment.

Happy early birthday!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Thank you! And it's fine if you don't always comment: neither do I. ;-)
anar_anar ══╣╠══
Happy early birthday my dear :)
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thank you...
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