July 2017
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confusion (biofamily)


go to sleep, self!
I don't know why I'm doing this. I feel like I've left something undone but I'm not sure what.

It's probably the bio-family thing. They want me to go up on the 24th and stay 5 days... and Ben said he can handle being separated, but I don't think I can handle them alone. But I feel like maybe I should... and I'm putting off saying yes or no in hopes that it'll just be too late. What? me avoiding confrontation? What's goin'on 'ere? Well, I'm fighting guilt, that's what. At least I emailed my dad.

RRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrr I hate doubting myself. But the idea of being without Ben and with them for five days is just so depressing. Plus it'll be like 40 below zero, and I can't stand cold.

Gak. okay, I'm going to obey myself and go to bed.

P.S. GUYS on my friends list, please go respond to that poll. So far only girls have given opinions.
feelings: conflicted


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