belenen

the eclectic ecstasy of an ecphorizing eccentric

eccoriating to exuviate

Name:
aquastar
Location:
Georgia, United States
Website:
belenen@everywhere
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Bio
I feel The current mood of belenen at www.imood.com today.



Note: Underage users should not view this journal, as it contains material that is occasionally of an adult nature.
"I dream that love without tyranny is possible." -- Andrea Dworkin

"I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person,
and don't judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free."
-- Angelina Jolie

"The only person who is educated is the one who has learned how to learn and change." -- Carl Rogers

"are you frustrated because of the way people perceive you, or are you happy enough about the things
you've realized about yourself that you can tolerate the way people perceive you?"
-- Shannon Hoon

"Love is possible only if two persons communicate with each other from the center of their existence.
It is not a resting place but a moving, growing working together ... only in this 'central experience'
is human reality, only here is aliveness, only here is the basis for love."
-- Erich Fromm


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aquarius sun     gemini rising     sagittarius moon
Who I am:
People are too complex for words to paint them faithfully, but words can draw an outline. My outline can be sketched thus: a spiritual, creative, honest, open, compassionate, queer (by choice), polyamorous, wanderer, Georgian, curvy body-positive, fiercely individualistic, anti-porn, pro-nudity, pro-sex feminist/equalist, nudist, aquarian (gemini rising), genderfree female-bodied person. (shading and colors are added here) The qualities I'm currently building up in myself are fearlessness, faith, and creativity. I'm very aware of the dark brokenness of the world, but choose to focus on the sparks of beauty and work to create more light and love. Small things make me incredibly happy, and I'm always giggling -- or laughing so loud that everyone in earshot can't help but glance over. I enjoy wandering the passages of my own mind and am never bored. I keep my body hair, rarely wear makeup (and when I do it is wildly colorful & expressive), wear mismatched socks & running shoes with everything, and always wear long dangly earrings of my own design. I love my lush, curvy body; I dress it in comfortable, form-fitting, colorful clothing (death to 'fashion'!), and eat to fuel my body (never to change my shape). When I grow up, I want to travel half of the year and spend the rest in a low-impact woodland house, next to a pool, on land of my own, and be naked all the time.

What's in my LJ:
---my thoughts & feelings; my emotional journey
---society; my ideas on why it is the way it is and how it could change
---everyday life; what happens in my life and my reaction to it
---polls & interactive memes; me seeking to learn more of you
---photo posts; myself, my jewelry, randomosity
---art & music; every weekend I share some of my artistic inspirations
---music; once or twice a month I share my musical inspirations
---dreams; occasionally with interpretations

Why I'm here:
I use LJ to explore and express myself, and to connect with others who do the same. I strive always to learn more of myself and the world so that I can share and connect with more people. My most intense passion in life is to learn, in order to grow, and to grow, in order to love - more deeply, more freely, more openly. I believe love is my purpose for being. The more I love people, the easier it gets, because I come to understand them more, and when you truly understand a person, it's the easiest and most natural thing in the world to love them. I believe that at core we are all amazing, glorious spirits of incalculable worth. We all have a level of brokenness that keeps our spirits from being able to shine as they were meant to, but every act of love ripples out a wave of healing.

I'm always open to new connections: people who are headed in the same direction and could possibly link paths with me. I seek open, honest people, who share themselves freely, love fearlessly, seek to grow continuously, and consider their true selves to be the most beautiful being. People who inspire me, show me new perspectives, stretch my mind and my heart. People who resist the ideals thrust on them by the media and learn who they really are, all assumptions stripped. People who see the pain and darkness in the world but still believe in life, love, spirit, beauty.

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. . . important posts . . .
        · main characters in the story of my life
        · identity: my self-labels and my definitions of them
        · parts of a person -- spirit, heart, soul, mind, and body
        · my decision to use genderfree language
        · discussing genderfree language
        · bisexuality is a stable and legitimate sexual preference
        · concept of sex as a spiritual exchange, polyamory
        · polyamory -- how I choose my lovers
        · on use of the word 'rape' & 'curse words'
        · the bel survey -- my answers & tell me about you!
        · the difference between openness and honesty
        · LJ journey to openness & honesty; my love for nudity
        · about artistic nude modeling
        · open-mindedness
        · love & affection
        · soulfriendship
        · misunderstandings
        · on vanity weight loss
        · expressing pain vs. complaining
        · on talking about a person behind zir back

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. . . my inspirations . . .

[Biting the Sun] [The Girls Next Door] [Embraced By the Light] [The Awakening Heart] [The Ripple Effect] [Somebody Else's Kids] [Ramses (series)] [Archangel (series)] [Hopscotch] [War of the Flowers] [Nighthorse Rider (series)] [Word and Void (series)] [Scarlett] [The Silver Metal Lover] [Just Another Kid] [One Child] [The Tiger's Child] [Harry Potter (series)] [Transformed By The Light] [Life After Life] [Closer To The Light] [The Dreaming Tree] [Memory, Sorrow, and Thorn (series)] [TrueFaced]

[Joan Slonczewski] [Tanith Lee] [Betty Eadie] [Torey Hayden] [Sharon Shinn] [Judith Tarr] [Pauline Gedge] [Michael J. Roads] [Stephen Leigh] [Christian Jacq] [Tad Williams] [Alexandra Ripley] [Julio Cortazar] [Lindsy Van Gelder & Pamela Brandt] [C.J. Cherryh] [Terry Brooks] [Melvin Morse, M.D.] [J. K. Rowling] [Zilpha Keatley Snyder] [Stephen Lawhead] [Douglas Adams] [Alan Dean Foster] [C. S. Lewis] [Naomi Wolf]

[apoptygma berzerk] [shiny toy guns] [dream art science] [noe venable] [the echoing green] [mutemath] [the cranberries] [silversun pickups] [massive attack] [dead can dance] [p.j. harvey] [missy higgins] [savage garden] [the benjamin gate] [e. s. posthumus] [sam sparro] [dolores o'riordan] [t.A.T.u.] [fauxliage] [jamie blake] [orenda fink] [butterfly boucher] [massivivid] [lily allen] [deepika] [heather nova] [coldplay] [darren hayes] [azure ray] [ké] [bitter:sweet] [8mm] [vixtrola] [earthsuit] [fono] [lifehouse] [dot allison] [neulander] [tonic] [angie aparo] [plumb] [kosheen] [jem] [halou] [flunk] [si*se] [venus hum] [mukala] [morcheeba] [royksopp] [little dragon] [dresden dolls] [mythos] [schiller] [amethystium] [conjure one] [delerium] [kate havnevik] [enigma]

[Sarah Grimké] [Andrea Dworkin] [Robert Jensen] [Angelina Jolie] [Lily Allen] [Paul Rudd] [Claudia Black] [Sam Sparro] [James Marsters] [Christopher Judge] [Michael Shanks] [Zachary Quinto] [Butterfly Boucher] [Betty Eadie] [Amanda Palmer] [Juan Mann] [Torey Hayden] [Adam Sandler] [Jimmy Carter] [Sara Ramirez] [Dolores O'Riordan] [Drew Barrymore] [Omar Epps] [Matthew Perry] [Jack Black] [Jay Mohr] [Leisha Hailey] [Ryan Phillippe] [Brian Molko] [Katheryn Winnick] [Grizz Chapman] [Mia Tyler] [Carl Rogers] [P!nk] [George Washington Carver] [Christina Aguilera] [John Ripley Forbes] [James Marsden] [Lee Pace] [Zach Braff] [Jude Law]

[Anders Zorn] [Frank Frazetta] [Norman Lindsay] [Tamara de Lempicka] [William Etty] [Guillaume Seignac] [Luis Ricardo Falero] [John William Godward] [Delphin Enjolras] [William Bouguereau] [Herbert James Draper] [Louis Corinth] [Frederick Carl Frieseke] [Pierre-Auguste Renoir] [Paul Desire Trouillebert] [Cynthia Sheppard] [Michael Whelan] [Willow Jenkinson] [Willow Arlenea] [Ma Deva Padma] [Liiga Smilshkalne] [Jean Tay] [Benita Winckler] [Linda Bergkvist] [Jana Schirmer] [Paien Skye] [Jake Probelski] [Bao Pham] [Diane Özdamar] [Jessica Oyhenart] [Roc Upchurch] [Michaël Zancan] [Kajsa Flinkfeldt] [Vitaly S. Alexius] [Larry MacDougall] [Royce Deans] [Stephanie Dodson] [Desirée Isphording] [Steven C. Edwards] [Katherine R. Barber]

[Playing By Heart] [Kiss Me Again] [The Matrix (series)] [Foxfire] [Ever After] [I Could Never Be Your Woman] [A Lot Like Love] [The Guitar] [The Golden Compass] [I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry] [Harry Potter (series)] [Garden State] [Fingersmith] [Stardust] [Something New] [The Object of My Affection] [Girl Interrupted] [Guess Who] [Edge of America] [Music and Lyrics] [Happy Gilmore] [Big Daddy] [50 First Dates] [Mr. Deeds] [Never Been Kissed] [8 Mile] [Life Or Something Like It] [School of Rock] [A.I. Artificial Intelligence] [Bruce Almighty] [Calendar Girls] [The Holiday] [The Island] [Lord of the Rings] [Soldier's Girl]

[Moonlight] [Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip] [The L Word] [Scrubs] [Grey's Anatomy] [Journeyman] [Ghost Whisperer] [Xena] (I hate TV itself but I do watch some shows on DVD (the ads are the most toxic part of TV))


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I support: Equality Now, Georgia Equality, CHRIS Kids, RAINN, Legal Momentum,
Full Radius Dance, Oyate, Big Trees Forest Preserve, & The Snow Leopard Trust


up for sale on my etsy (at least 50% of profits go to the charities listed above):

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it's been said that I am ubiquitous on the web, and it's kinda true.
· shimmering questions · waterstar jewelry · deviantart · myspace · ourchart · my books · my music ·
· last.fm · projectplaylist · flickr · amazon · modelmayhem · onemodelplace ·

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. . . my friends are love . . .


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My amazing, wonderful, incredibly loving friends describe me to you:

[info]clown_frog: She's the only person I know who could be relied on to see the best in people, and to care. She does not prejudge, she is open-minded. Has a strong sense of what is right. I think she thinks things through and makes her own morals... Sometimes she doubts, and she doesn't like that; she likes to feel strongly about things and to have faith. I love her because she is so kind and because she is open-minded and will see other views, she is not blind. She has not stopped, she keeps moving, making progress. Her life is a staircase she climbs, not just a moving walkway to stand still on from birth to death.
[info]kmiotutsie: She is a very strong woman who lets herself be totally real -- all the time, it seems. Most people don't let themselves be totally real all the time, because they're too afraid of getting taken advantage of somehow, but I think it is a sign of real strength, when someone can be aware of this and be real at the same time.
[info]happystance: i like how articulate she is. a lot of times she points out things that i think about but just cant put into words. and also she is a very understanding person. she is the only one i know that i know for sure would actually stop and try to understand someone before actually saying a word.
[info]sidhe_aingeal: She is an incredibly loving, spiritual person who is always willing to make time for others. She's intelligent and has strong views she will stick by through thick and thin. She takes her relationships with those she cares for seriously and makes working to improve them a priority. She also makes time for self-care and working to improve herself.
[info]jendaby: I think she is one of the most open, connected, full-of-love people I have ever encountered! It is like she is aware of a whole other plane of existence that most of us cannot find the entrance to. It's so beautiful!
[info]notashamed: Belenen is beautiful, honest, true, real and demanding in the way that a true person should be. She teaches with her words and inspires me to be the true woman that I know I can be.
[info]darkpool: She's someone who wants to live life fully. Very interesting and vibrant. She's a very sensory person... She writes interesting things and makes beautiful jewelry. She's very in touch with the spiritual side of life and other people's spirits and very passionate.
[info]lunaflare: She's intensely real and true to herself and her emotions. From reading her journal, I see her as someone who does not often wear a mask and a false smile, and connects deeply to people, in an empathic way.
[info]anar_anar: She's a very, very genuine person who is completely comfortable naked in front of the world... really... she is so OPEN and honest and doesn't care who does or doesn't like it.
[info]12thknight: like a crystal pipette, well-made, transparent, wondrous in reflection and fragile.
[info]bluebl00d: She doesn't stop and judge people, she sees the big picture. No matter if you share or not the same beliefs, she'll give you her time, she's a very generous person.

(I chose my favorite bits -- you can read the entirety of 'em here.)


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Friending Policy: Add me if you want: my journal is 95% public, and I certainly don't mind you adding me. No need to ask!

My lj-friends are very important to me; I genuinely care about them and invest in them at least as much as face-to-face friends. Because of this, I only friend some people, not everyone, because I want to be able to keep up with my friends list and make real connections.

If you friend me, I will check out your journal, read some entries and your userinfo to see if I think we have potential to click. If I think we do, I'll add you back. ;-) (if I don't add you right away, I may add you later after I've gotten to know you through comments) I look for lj-friends who:
will challenge me, stretch my mind and help me grow as a person -- and who want to grow and seek to learn from me as well.
are passionate about life -- who are excited about making their journey in this world, and believe they can and will make a difference and change the world.
are honest and open; not only telling their truth but telling it freely and vulnerably. Who post about personal thoughts & feelings as well as daily life.
are on a journey to learn to love themselves and others exactly as they are.
are compassionate, creative, intense, and openminded.
fill out my get to know you survey! <---
also rather desperately seeking polyamorous people who are NOT into bdsm, as we seem to be depressingly rare.


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clown_frog, shadowlily, rescoto, brightlotusmoon, roina_arwen, bellerisa, spindell, shioneh, lorelei_sakti, smurfb1ue, aubkabob, & wallbrat!!!
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