Happy (very belated) Birthday evileve!!!

I look up to you, and at the same time, I see that we're both walking up the same road. I love how I have had the chance to see you grow and become even more of an incredible, phenominal woman. Last year this time I was WAY too intimidated to seriously consider meeting you, just because you ARE so strong and I admire you so much that I was terrified of your negative opinion. But I think you have softened -- not becoming any weaker -- but your strength is less of a shield and more a part of you, allowing you to be more gentle. (and I could be totally off -- this is just my impression) Now I see you as more of a person; deeper and more powerful than most, but more willing to share your strength than you were. And I'm not afraid of you anymore. I just love you. ♥ I hope this next year brings you even more growth and joy than this past year has.

I was at a restaurant with evileve, eating a very early breakfast (it was still dark outside). It was a buffet, so I got a lot of different types of fruit, melon in particular (I write everything down because you never know what parts of a dream are most important). A little girl came in the restaurant, and Eve and I found out that she was an orphan (she was about three or four). Somehow Eve knew that the little girl was being hunted, and she stood up and started walking to the door, holding the little girl's hand. I followed, seeing her urgency. Eve paid for both of our meals, because it was quicker, and I didn't argue (like I would have if it hadn't been so urgent). We went outside and ran to a black SUV, where we put the little girl in a carseat in the back (that just happened to be there?) and Eve started driving. We were both stressed out, but Eve was calmer than I was -- I grabbed her hand in a moment of panic (over what I can't remember) and then when I was going to let go she held on and smiled reassuringly at me. ( symbols )

For some reason I went to my old neighborhood in Woodstock (where I used to live with my parents) and walked around -- then saw another integra (in my dream it was burgandy) similar to my Sylvia, and thought to myself, "huh, that could be Eve's car." Then Eve got out of the car and I was excited but nervous. I wasn't sure if she'd recognise me or not, so I didn't run up and hug her, even though I wanted to. Instead I walked up and said hi, and she turned and looked at me and then I saw her recognise me so I went up and hugged her. It was more like old friends meeting after a long absence than two lj friends meeting for the first time -- and the hug was so genuine. Not short, not awkward like I had expected it to be. And there was something sad about it -- like I was comforting her about something.
Afterward I started helping them (evileve and scourge) move in, oddly enough into my parents' old house. It didn't take very long (obviously a dream), so we just sat and talked together for a while... unfortunately the details are fuzzy, but I remember talking about Lilith and a lot of other subjects.

The dream was so vivid emotionally that now I miss her, and feel comfortable saying all of this even though yesterday I'd have felt a little awkward since I don't really know how she feels about me. The dream-feeling convinces me that she understands and loves me.

Happy Birthday, evileve!!! I hope it's peaceful and joyful; making you feel incredibly loved and satisfied with yourself. You are a wonderful person, and I'm glad to have 'met' you. ;-)

( your birthday present! )

God had called me to go to church full of old people. I thought he must want me to help him open their minds to how widely he can work, so I danced during worship. It turned out that this was Eve's grandparents' church, and for some reason she had decided to visit one of the mornings I was there. She was hurting, and asked me to explain how God could heal her. I explained how and why Jesus died and how we live by grace and not under the law, and she prayed to receive him, and then she asked me to help her pray for God to heal her heart. So we prayed for a long time over many things, especially the occult stuff, and I literally saw her heart in pieces, each piece encased in a clear saran-wrap-ish orb. As we prayed over each thing, I took each piece in my hands and burst the casing to release that part of her heart. When we were finally finished, we put the parts all back inside her body, and then I just held her in my lap as I sat on the floor, and I hugged her and loved her, and we both cried. During this whole thing I felt her feelings very strongly, though not as strongly as she did, of course.

I love Eve so much, so very very much. If I were her, I wouldn't believe it, so I don't talk about it (which is why I made this post private) because I don't want to scare her. But I pray that she will be healed, that she'll come to love God, that she will trust me, and that we will become friends. She's a part of my heart.

I dreamed that I was at the beach with Ben and the cousins (Pagliaris), just running all over the place. Everything was intense green -- the air, the sky, the sand, the water -- as if the light was green. At one point I started to sing, very loudly but beautifully, and then realized what I was doing and stopped to think about that. Eve, who had been a little ways down the beach, came up to me (she had green hair and a green two-piece) and hugged me and lowered me to the ground, laying on top of me. We just hugged for a minute, then she put her mouth on mine. I was a little startled until I realized she was giving me her chewing gum -- it was still full of flavor so I took it. Then she murmured something to me about not worrying about it, and began stroking my throat to get me to swallow it. I realized she was testing me, so I maneuvered my tongue to keep from swallowing it, and when I felt a small string of it start to stretch down my throat I rolled her off of me, stopping her from stroking my throat. I sprang up and blew a bubble to show I still had the gum, and she was impressed. So we ran off and played tag.

It left a pleasant feeling in my mind; there was nothing hidden between us and we were close friends. Since I get that feeling so rarely, it makes my whole day lovely -- even when it comes from a dream about someone I'm not close with at all.

First I was flying above a sea filled with carnivorous eels, one of whom was begging me to rescue him. When I finally gave in and swooped him up, the scene changed.

I was in a desolate place with Eve. It was hot and dark, and all the trees were burnt. There was moist silt that looked like it might be drinkable, but looking at it I remembered something about this in Revelations and quoted that we'd want to drink the silt but not be able to. Still, we tried to pick it up and it was like trying to pick up water with oil-slicked hands -- it just slid right off. Then I scooped some up and she lifted me to try to drink it from my hands, but it didn't work -- it slid off everywhere else but none into her mouth. I was afraid that she might consider killing me to drink my blood ('cause I'd have let her), but she didn't, and we got weaker and weaker. Finally we were laying on the ground holding each other and waiting to die, and I told her I wished she would love God -- and that she must be pretty awesome for God to give her more of a chance than any other human (we were the only ones alive at that point). Then I asked if she knew what Jesus had done for her -- she just looked at me, so I started telling her about the crucifixion, but I began waking up at this point so I don't know what she thought. She just listened.

The feeling of intimacy in the dream was so deep that I woke up missing her company.