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go shawty, it's your birthday / babygirl Risa! and the Wynnes / mmmm

(mental_coercion made this
for me from an artwork by Meilin Wong)

I'm 22! One of my favorite numbers times my very favorite! (which makes this a favored number, of course) This year will be teh fuckin' awesomest.

Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.usSo YAY! I opened eternitywaiting's present, which was all wrapped in lovely purple and lavendar tissue, and here it is (it's hanging on my wall above my beading table, against a cloth that is hanging from the ceiling) -------->
Nik (hurry up and rename yourself before I get used to that name!), you are wonderfully talented and so thoughtful! I'm amazingly blessed and touched by all the effort you went to for me. Effort and Bel-ness are the most important aspects of a present, and you nailed 'em both!

and I'm still going to be watching the mail impatiently and happily for misemifein2's present. I'm so freakin' lucky.

Ben and I are ridiculously broke right now, so we're waiting to celebrate on Friday -- it'll be after payday and it's my next day off.

So did anybody rent "Playing By Heart"??? (It's not too late! I'm not officially celebrating until Friday!)

I got some 'happy birthday' wishes from the oddest sources! Walmart had a little "happy birthday" note on the screen when I clocked in, and even weirder, our property managers left a card on the door saying happy birthday. It's not like we ever talk to them or anything -- but it was certainly a nice gesture. And then I had to tell elya (Ben's twin, my friend and in-law) that it was my birthday 'cause she forgot! (she had given me a lovely present early though, telling me that she just knew she'd forget the actual day) Then she told other people, and Lanie gave me a hug, which I considered a present. Physical touch really means a lot to me, and Lanie (one of the CSMs (the people who tell me what to do)) is such a darling. It makes me happy whenever I see her because she's so cheerful and alive.


Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.usOh yeah! And last night Ben and I went to the Saturday 5pm service at church, and saw Paula and Spencer. They gave me the presents that they had gotten me for Christmas (we really don't see them very often, sadly); a photo of Risa in a purple beaded frame, and these (the purple for me, the blue for Ben) (read the writing, it's hilarious!):
(hee hee!) Paula learned so much about me over those months I spent with her -- last year she got me a navy blue (with GOLD trim!) windbreaker and pants! I hate navy blue, gold, and the icky staticy feeling of those pants -- they went straight to donation. This year, purple + coffee = awesomegiftsquared. Kisses for Paula, and note to self: pray that she'll learn to trust. Even if it never benefits me, she deserves/needs that ability.

I went with Spencer to get Risa from the nursery after church, and babygirl recognised my voice! Spencer took her from the lady and she turned and reached for me! It could just be coincidence, but I don't think so. She heard my voice practically as much as Paula and Spencer's voices during her last three months in the womb. So I held my little sister for the second time (the first time that didn't include jealous stares), and we are so spiritkin, I know so much about her without knowing her mind at all. I think we must have known each other in heaven, and I bet we were close friends there. I don't want to miss out on her toddlerhood though, and I'm so afraid that I will.

Spencer was planning on bringing my W2s (JoAnns had my address from when I lived with them) but he forgot them, so I asked what they were doing tomorrow (thinking of picking them up) and he said they were having a superbowl party -- and I don't remember the exact phraseology, but Ben got the impression that we were invited and I got the opposite impression. Anyway I had to work until seven... and we didn't have the money for the gas to drive all the way over there and back, so even though I really wanted to go after work, we decided not to. I'm sad about it now, because I hate missing out on time with them, and I'm afraid they'll feel snubbed and not invite us next time, and I REALLY hate missing out on being at their house in a festive atmosphere. They throw the best parties, and not just because of the food and big screen tv, either -- there's just a feeling of lightheartedness that I've never felt elsewhere. And I never feel as at home as I do at their house. And I just really really miss them.

Spencer thought my birthday was in March, which makes me wonder if he was planning on sending me a card or something. Just the idea makes me teary. And I think the purple frame was his idea -- he seems to love the idea that I love Risa. He always wants me to hold her, it seems, and I know the photo at least was his idea. Maybe he senses babygirl's and my spirit-kinship, maybe it's his way of being grateful for helping Paula through the pregancy.... and maybe it's because he knew that I desperately wanted him to want Risa. Or it could possibly be that he in a sense feels like I 'gave' Risa to them, because I told Paula (a year before she got pregnant) that she was going to have a baby girl before too long. (they had her after they had given up and begun to plan a hysterectomy for Paula) Whatever it is, I like it, because it keeps me from feeling replaced -- oh yeah, that's probably the whole reason he does it, the analytical man that he is.


Belenen: 2
Ben: 1
Very, very, very good game. (of course, I'm always happy when I come out on top. I must win.)

feelings: satisfied
sounds: the Cranberries: "Wake Up and Smell the Coffee"

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jessbarely ══╣╠══
well happy birthday to you! 22 seems like it would be a great age, you dont have the stigma of being 21, and now your like a real big girl. awesome! have fun this weekend!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thank you!
acid_burns ══╣╠══
Happy Birthday! :)
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here you go! ;)
belenen ══╣╠══
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tequilaprophet ══╣╠══
Happy Birthday!
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
shespoke ══╣╠══
happy birthday love :)
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
thank you dahlin'. ;-)
toadiedeogre ══╣╠══
YAY!!! 22!!! Thats cool! My fiancee turns 22 in a week!!! :) Hope you have fun celebrating!!!! :)

belenen ══╣artistic╠══
Dunno if you like, but I sharpened up your icon a bit. ;-)

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belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
very cool, I'll check out yours also. ;-)
kevloid ══╣╠══
doh! missed it. well, happy belated.
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
thanks. ;-)
jedibubbles ══╣╠══
*dies over appropriateness of the mugs' slogan*

Yay Risa!

*rolls eyes* You and your games, woman!
belenen ══╣teasing╠══
*wicked little laugh* Well, I don't get to play that often, but when I do, it's ecstasy.
eternitywaiting ══╣╠══
Happy birthday!

I'm glad you liked your present. I'm always a little wary about giving home-made gifts because you never really know if the person is just going to think you're a cheap-ass, but I knew you weren't the type. :-)

I'm glad you got so many random's always nice to feel loved from unexpected directions.
belenen ══╣beautiful╠══
Thank you again, you wonderful wonderful girl!
aubkabob ══╣╠══
GAH! i couldn't for the life of me remember if it was yesterday, today, next week... *bangs head repeatedly on desk* that's what i get for being so digusted with people in general, that i've been staying away from lj....

could i have your snail mail address, luv, so that if i ever get around to getting off me arse and mailing something, that i can have a means to do so? :)

but anyhoo.. here's to a whole nother year ahead of you, completely open for adventure and new stories and fantastic memories. i'm happy that i get to be a part of it :)

the world is yours.
belenen ══╣shimmering╠══
Thank you love, I'm happy that you're gonna be a part of it too.

I will email you in a little minute.
beautymess ══╣╠══
Happy Birthday!

(I do intend to watch that film, btw.)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
YAY! and thank you!
smurfb1ue ══╣╠══
Happy belated birthday! So glad it was good and that you got to see the Wynnes.
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
Thank you!
mental_coercion ══╣╠══
*blushes* I'm glad you liked the banner! Sounds like you're having a good start to the year, I hope your birthday brings you all the best. Happy Birthday again! <3
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
darkpool ══╣╠══
Happy birthday, I've been away all weekend so I missed saying it on your birthday. Also I have a little thing for you but I haven't had time to package it yet, much less send it, but I wanted to tell you so you'd know what it is when it came.
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
aaaaaawwwwwwww... thank you! So sweet!
anar_anar ══╣╠══
I told myself I'd be a good friend, write a nice, long note and send it in an e-card. My little Yahoo! alert showed up at midnight on your birthday and I swore I'd do it once I woke up.
But I didn't. And now I'm really late. I suck. Meh. But I did think about you... happy late birthday ?
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
Thank you! I appreciate the intention, honestly. ;-)

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