Belenen (belenen) wrote,
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comment question / a realization about my strength.


how much do comments mean to you in general?

Mean: 5.99 Median: 6 Std. Dev 1.56
1
0(0.0%)
2
2(2.3%)
3
2(2.3%)
4
15(17.0%)
5
10(11.4%)
6
26(29.5%)
7
13(14.8%)
8
20(22.7%)

how much do comments on emotional posts mean to you?

Mean: 6.81 Median: 7.5 Std. Dev 1.62
1
1(1.1%)
2
1(1.1%)
3
4(4.5%)
4
3(3.4%)
5
6(6.8%)
6
13(14.8%)
7
16(18.2%)
8
44(50.0%)

how much do in-depth comments mean to you?

Mean: 7.01 Median: 8 Std. Dev 1.56
1
1(1.1%)
2
1(1.1%)
3
2(2.3%)
4
4(4.5%)
5
6(6.8%)
6
8(9.1%)
7
14(15.9%)
8
52(59.1%)


For me, I really want lots of comments if I post about my races or my world; otherwise, I love them but never feel slighted if I don't get them (okay, maybe if you didn't tell me happy birthday I might have felt a little slighted). BUT -- I always want everyone to participate in my polls.

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Yesterday, Matthew (this highschooler cashier) was working at the next register over, and he told me his IPH (items scanned per hour) and wanted me to tell him mine, but I wouldn't. So he came over to my register as I was finishing with a customer, and was about to reach for the action code keys to get it anyway -- and I grabbed his hand and said, "Oh no you don't, buddy." He stepped back, and I gave my customers their receipt, smiled and wished them good day, then turned back to him. He told me I have 'man hands'; I asked what he meant by that and he said that I have a very strong grip. Without thinking, I said, "Yeah, well I'm able to stop people from doing things I don't want them to." He said, "really? You've needed to stop people?" or something like that -- I didn't quite catch it because he was walking back to his register. He was probably trying to be a smartass (like usual).

Anyway, that little incident made me realize that I am strong.
I am no longer a helpless child, and I don't need to feel like one.
I am able to defend myself.
I am able to say no.

I feel my strength awakening in my spirit; my shimmering white cobra is rearing her unutterably beautiful, dangerous head. It feels so good, so freeing.
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