September 17th, 2009

tenebrous

broken trust, stupid faith

B (soon-to-be-ex-partner) just told me that ze "doesn't agree with" my "philosophies and lifestyle," and in fact hasn't for years. I've never been so betrayed; I've been lied to in such a massive way. I can't even really take it in. I've been living with a stranger.

I'm worried that I'm not going to be able to trust anymore. Who the fuck am I without that? How am I so easily fooled? Why do I trick myself into believing things that are so OBVIOUSLY NOT TRUE??? Why don't I ever listen to my mind when things don't add up?

And I'm pretty angry with myself right now because I keep making the same fucking mistake. Collapse )