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I have been feeling so very negative the past week or so. And it piled up on me so much that I got too nauseated to work and called in sick -- and now I feel negative/guilty about work. I can never relax about calling in sick, even when I know I wouldn't be any use there.

I could really use all of your prayers/positive thoughts/energies. I'm just feeling so ugh, and I don't know why. But I am not going to stay down! I'm going to get past this. I just need help.


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evileve ══╣╠══
I get that way too about 2 weeks before my period, it's usually due to hormones(PMS).
boobiequeen ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣loving╠══
*hugs back*
gyrlcentric ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣loving╠══
You are so sweet. Thank you. *hugs*
camilleyun ══╣╠══
*sending hugs and kisses and best wishes in your direction*
belenen ══╣loving╠══
Thank you so much sweetheart! It meant a lot that you did that for me. ;-)
12thknight ══╣╠══
Sending all I can to you, Bel. ::hug::
belenen ══╣loving╠══
Thank you. *hugs back*
xena kiss
eternitywaiting ══╣xena kiss╠══
You know you always have all my positive thoughts.

To pick up your spirits:

belenen ══╣loving╠══
Oh Anika, how I love you. Thank you so much lovely.
a - zeus
maladroitkat ══╣a - zeus╠══
I'm sending positive vibes your way, Bel.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
Thank you with all my heart.
free2be ══╣╠══

Are you able to get behind your negativity, you know, pass through it and see what is on the other side of it? Like your pure perfect spirit? As if it is light. Which is and touches everything around you too, for quite some distance.

Negativity is a spiritual blemish of sorts. It's on the surface only. Thin, not deep. But it casts a shadow, making what is in front of you look negative too -- but it is not! It's just a shadow. Everything is as good as ever.

Feel what is deep inside you, what is you, and look through everything else you see, hear, touch, taste, smell...to what is inside of it, behind it. It's all good. Pure good.

With enough spiritual "light" power (and there are unlimitied amounts of It in you and all around you) the darkness of negativity will fade, weaken, and go.

Take care.

belenen ══╣analytical╠══
This was lightening to read (no pun intended), so thank you.
paradigm_shift ══╣╠══
Sending some love your way! *hugs*

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belenen ══╣adorable╠══
awwwwwwww! Sunshiny carebear love!
shioneh ══╣dragonfly╠══
I'm really sorry you're hurting. I react the same way to time off.. Sometimes I end up even more tired and down than I was before the day off, because the guilt has eaten away at me.. You deserve that day off Bel. You are so strong and glowy and wonderful, you give so much energy to those around you that you need time to recharge. If you can bring yourself to, do something kind for yourself today.. If you can't do it for yourself, then do something nice for yourself for me? I hope you find the strength to let yourself rest and to nourish your beautiful self.

Love you Bel darling.. You are on my mind and I am sending you positive thoughs AND positive energies AAAAND prayers. I hope they get to you. I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you.. ♥......
belenen ══╣loving╠══
Thank you thank you thank you thank you.... your love and concern and positivity and prayers REALLY made a difference and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. They certainly did get to me! I lovelovelove you! ♥
aubkabob ══╣╠══
it seems like a lot of this has been going around - i've been emotionally frantic, even.

my hearts (all of them!), prayers, and moombas are all sent in your direction, luv.
belenen ══╣confused╠══
Well I know the hearts and prayers got here, but what are moombas???
aubkabob ══╣╠══
ohsaycanyousay ══╣╠══
Thinking of you, and sending all the positive energy I can muster your way. *hug*
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you, that means a lot, especially considering what you have been going through lately. *hugs tightly*
backdrifter_ ══╣╠══
oh, honey, I feel your pain. I know what that feels like. When you feel like you don't want to move and you know your head's too clouded to try to go into work but then you feel guilty because people go into work with flu and things, and you feel that you're not really 'sick' so that you're letting the side down. But believe me, time off is the best thing for you. It lets you collect together all your thoughts.
Make a list at the start of each day with small achievable tasks on it, like say, go for a long walk to clear your head, or do something nice for someone. Y'know, things that make you feel a little better and make sure you achieve all of them in that day, until finally, 'face work' appears on your list after you've built up the strength to by achieving lots of things that make you feel good.

I'll be thinking of you - I hope you feel better soon. That's not a fair way to feel in life. It masks all the fun and joys.

belenen ══╣loving╠══
Thank you so much for this. Much love to you. *hugggg* ♥
johnny oollah
invisibleglue ══╣johnny oollah╠══
I will be thinking of you.
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
thank you. *hugs*
darkpool ══╣╠══
*hugs* Mental health is important to, being mentally sick can be just as bad as physically.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you. *hugs back*
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