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marriage struggles -- gettin' betta'


Well, I wanted to post about how Ben and I are doing better, but right now I'm all pissy so I can't do it right. It's the second day of my cycle, I had to work both of the first two days and I have a full day again today, which is enough to make me miserable (I HATE working on the first two days) -- and I had absolutely no me-focused time with Ben for the past... 40 hours? because we have opposite schedules, so I am feeling unloved and cranky and deading time passing, which is never good. Also my parents are coming in town, which is always a cause for stress, especially now.

AND YET.

I have had more energy the past two days than I have for the past two weeks. Usually the first two days of my cycle are my lowest, weakest days -- but compared to how I have been it is a great change. A coworker actually noticed the change in my energy level/attitude and commented.

I think Ben's recent generosity is finally making a difference -- and I strongly suspect that some of you have been sending prayers/positive energy my way. Thank you.

And three days in a row I woke Ben up 'in a way that has proven to be very popular in the past.' (notashamed, I am sure you know where that quote is from) ;-) So he's happy.

feelings: bitchy
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Comments
kevloid ══╣╠══
hey that's great things are going better. :-)
bluebl00d ══╣╠══
"'in a way that has proven to be very popular in the past.'"

i think we all know what you are referring to lol!
kevloid ══╣╠══
cooking bacon? :-D
amused
belenen ══╣amused╠══
well yes, but it's a F.R.I.E.N.D.S quote so I knew that my fellow obsesser notashamed would pick that up. ;-)
darkpool ══╣╠══
Better is good.
[f] i am the walrus
notashamed ══╣[f] i am the walrus╠══
hee! you're so funny. i've sure he's LOVED it ;)
amused
belenen ══╣amused╠══
I knew you would recognize that quote. ;-D
ani
invisibleglue ══╣ani╠══
I'm glad things are getting better, and you betcha I'll be sending positive thoughts your way.

*kiss*
loving
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you sweetie. ;-)
angeleyes831 ══╣╠══
I am so glad ya'll are doing better. Lots of love and prayers are coming your way. *hugs*
loving
belenen ══╣loving╠══
*hugs back*
misemifein2 ══╣╠══
Hey, I'm glad things are getting better! And very sorry they were so bad to make you write the other post. It upset me greatly to read it. I wouldn't have been able to give advice either. But I know you will be ok, anyway, because you are a special kind of person. I'm still trying to work out what exactly it is that makes you that. But it is a good thing to be!

I'm sorry it has taken me this long to get to reading your posts (and still haven't read them all from since I left- I hope to sometime). Because I didn't even know you were working again! Also I have to look up what your icons are for because you have so many new ones that I don't know.

I hope you don't feel pissy for too long. If it cheers you up at all then you can start anticipating for when I finally get round to sending you christmas stuff. Well, it is past christmas, but I didn't get what I meant to when I was in Glasgow, so I couldn't until next week when I get back. Knowing me it might take a little longer to get organised and be brave enough to face the post-office. It's scary sending things to America, I get paranoid about breaking laws I don't know about things that are illegal to send. Like anything that smells too strongly or anything that is food, or mentions George Bush and fascist in the same sentence, things like that. Not that I think George Bush is a fascist, that would be my brother. Nor would I be likely to send you anything that had George Bush and fascist in the same sentence.

Anyway, you'll get something sometime!

Sorry for the long and not very helpful at all comment. I do want things to be well for you though, I really do.
vivacious
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
Oh I miss having you on LJ. I miss you like CRAZY! It's not the same without you.

and this comment WAS helpful -- it made me smile happily and giggle. ;-)

I can't WAIT to get mail from you! it will make my week!
chococat
eternitywaiting ══╣chococat╠══
I'm glad you're doing better....and I'm always sending positive thoughts your way. :-)
loving
belenen ══╣loving╠══
paradigm_shift ══╣╠══
I'm glad things are improving, and I hope they continue to get better!
loving
belenen ══╣loving╠══
thank you for the well-wishes. ♥
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amused
belenen ══╣amused╠══
hee hee, awesome. ;-)
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