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insomnia / sleeping too much / Angelina dream


last night: so depressed I went to bed early because I couldn't stand my own company -- escapism in sleep. Dreamed of meeting Angelina, who was ridiculously sweet to me. (in the dream I thought of how jealous you'd be, bluebl00d)
this night: so lonely I couldn't go to bed because I'm afraid of my dreams. I don't want to dream of happiness and wake up to loneliness. And I don't want to go to bed and be tempted to wake Ben, who desperately needs his sleep, just to beg him to love on me.

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(Anonymous) ══╣╠══
gentle
belenen ══╣gentle╠══
*hugs back* Thank you.
Angelina Jolie / OMG!
bluebl00d ══╣Angelina Jolie / OMG!╠══
Why have I not read this entry before now?

"in the dream I thought of how jealous you'd be"

You would have been correct, btw ;)
amused
belenen ══╣amused╠══
I dunno, this was almost 2 years ago! ;-)
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