And now I feel like this... after a day where I poured out so much positivity. I just... need. something. someone. It's so selfish, but I am really looking forward to Ben's vacation time in a week, because then he won't be so tired and maybe when I feel like this he can hold me and love me and help me.
and huge belief shifts... confusing, wavering, torn. That's probably 80% of the reason I feel like this... because I can't make up my mind, or more accurately, my mind can't tell what my spirit believes or what my soul says.