It was just so mind-alteringly amazing. Everything was intensified -- I felt like there was a violet glow on everything all the time. Hannah and I have color concepts which are very similar (and hopefully I'll explain mine soon) and we consider us both violet spirits. We're especially alike in intensity -- it's hard to explain but basically everything has meaning, and I mean everything. We're both very intense separately, and it's exponentially increased when we're together. We went through unutterable pain and incredible joy on this visit. I've learned so much.
I feel like I've gone through not just one but several metamorphoses and I no longer have any clue what I look like -- hopefully my slow chronicling of the visit will help me process. I've changed so much! I believe Hannah has too. Our relationship is amazingly intense anyway, and we red-lined it by spending 24 hours a day together -- craziness.
Even though so much amazingly positive stuff happened, I think the most important part was the fact that we weathered two dreadfully painful 'fights.' I'm not sure what to call them because they weren't angry, mostly, and they were so intense that to call them fights seems to demean the feeling of them. I don't remember ever being in that much pain... and yet, though I wounded her and vice versa, we made it through, stronger and loving each other more. But I don't want to go deeply into that right now because that's a whole post unto itself.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! I want to add pics but there are SO MANY!!! *brain explodes* I have to run others by hannah for approval, so for now you get just
there are sooooooo many kissy pictures -- I'd say half of the ones with hannah and I have one of us kissing the other. ;-) I especially love this one because you can tell that alariya and I are holding back giggles. ♥
sooooooooooooooooo blissful ♥
I can't wait to update my icons! But I haven't been able to decide which of the thousands of photos I want to make my new 'bel hearts hannah' icon, and I have to work today so I have to sleep now. Poo on work!