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hopeful / Christmas / fantastic day; meet Amber, see Enchanted, hug from Thiago, long talk with Ava!

Hello beautiful beautiful people! *hugs whole flist*

I feel like I hit rock bottom and pushed off, and now I'm finally rising towards the surface. It feels really wonderful to be looking up instead of helplessly staring at my feet as I sink further and further. It wasn't anything I did; it was the love given to me by so many people, in so many ways. Megan especially -- she kept reaching out even though I was late and little in my responses. Thank you lovey ♥ You've been such a positive force in my life!

My Christmas was less than sparkly overall -- I had the worst cramps I've had in a LONG time, and missed the present-opening at my partner's fam's house (I love watching everybody open their presents and get all happy). But! Later on I finally felt better enough to move around and went over -- and they got my partner and I presents that were really thoughtful, which made me feel encouraged. (I've been feeling especially disconnected from them lately, for reasons that I'll leave for a future post) They got me a membership to Curves! Which is something I've been talking about for a long time, and is a really generous gift. I'm very excited about it ;-) One very sparkly point was the dream I had while sleeping my cramps away. It was my Christmas present from God/dess; the vivid, spiritually-real kind. ♥ It gave me so much hope and joy -- I'll post it after this. Now if I could only interpret it!

Two days after Christmas I had a fantastic day. I dropped my partner at work so I could have the car, and went to meet a new friend (who found me on craigslist) at a coffeehouse. Amber is bouncy and outgoing -- I think we're going to get along famously. We talked for a good long while and it felt so comfortable! I've met several new people in the past few months, some of whom I got along really well with but none with whom I felt soo comfortable. I really like to be around people who have a higher energy than me -- I love all types, of course, but when I have no higher-energy people in my life I really miss it.

Later that day I wrestled my partner into going to see Enchanted with me in the theatre (he thinks only action movies should be seen on the big screen *pah*) and we LOVED it! My partner actually laughed out loud which he hardly ever does -- he usually laughs in this 'heh heh' kind of way, not 'ha ha ha!' I love his laugh ;-) The beginning is almost painfully ironic, mocking the syrupy-sweetness of the 'classic' disney films. There's also some subtler feminist irony which I REALLY loved, and one incredible curvy-positive moment that almost made me cry. See it!

Then as we were leaving my partner spotted his old friend Thiago, whom we haven't seen in AGES! It was so incredibly meant to be -- if we had left a little earlier or a little later we would have missed him. Thiago is this absolutely amazing guy; I can't put into words what it is about him, as I don't even know him that well, but I really love him. He's one of the most respectful people I have ever met -- he has a deep respect for every person as themselves, and that just radiates from him. You know he would respect a prostitute, a politician, a pastor, or a child equally (or at least, I feel so) -- and he's one of the very few guys I've met who gives me the impression that he respects women as much as men. When we walked up to him he was with several other people, and he put out his hand as my partner walked over to greet another guy (my partner didn't notice his hand out) -- I laughed and said "I'll shake your hand!" and put my hand in his, and he turned to me and gave me a hug. I was just beaming -- this guy feels like a spiritual brother to me. Just before we left Thiago hugged me again, and I must have just been glowing with happiness. He was so genuine! Genuine physical affection is absolutely the most wonderful thing to me -- those two hugs meant SO much. ♥ ♥ ♥

And this amazing day wasn't over (it lasted over 25 hours :D)! After my partner went to bed, I got on gtalk in the mood to chat for the first time in AGES (usually I just pop in long enough to check my email) and had the most AMAZING conversation with mourningdoveava! I friended him in August and we've had quite a few commentations, but never a real-time conversation before. We talked for over SEVEN HOURS overall, about so many things, and it felt like such a short time! We're so alike it's insane. No, really! I thought Hannah and I were alike, but I think Ava and I have even MORE in common! It blows my mind to the point where I have a hard time believing he's real. *pinches him*

I'm using my super-extremely-very-uper-duper awesome new icon right now despite it's irrelevance because I am totally in love with it. Yay self-adoration! :D I have more to say *overflows* but I will put it in other posts! I am so... fertile right now! yum, rain. :D

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angelina jolie / she's learning to live
acid_burns ══╣angelina jolie / she's learning to live╠══
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Gosh. I WISH I had more time to comment, but since I don't...

Happy New Year to my beautiful Bel. I hope 2008 treats you kindly.

I'll come back to this message tomorrow.

belenen ══╣kissy╠══
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I hope 2008 treats you kindly also -- and I have a feeling it will ♥

Morning :: Maxfield Parrish
growing_wise ══╣Morning :: Maxfield Parrish╠══
You've been a positive force in my life, as well! ♥
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
aww yay! *nuzzles*
thiswaste ══╣╠══
I did watch Enchanted and LOVED it too. That curvy positive moment was awesome =)

Happy new year!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
yay for Enchanted! :D

A. Keys - Afro Puff
bornbeautiful ══╣A. Keys - Afro Puff╠══
happy new year. :) sounds like you had a great holiday. i'm glad you're feeling better.

(isn't ava the best ever? ^_^)
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
And Happy New Year to you!

(yes, of course! :D)
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
*laughs!!* you're ebullient!!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
haha, google word-of-the-day? :D
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
um, no.... the word that happened to apply
belenen ══╣eccentric╠══
I had looked at your comment just after looking at my google homepage, where it was the word of the day (no idea if it was the same day you posted the comment). I know you have a fabulous vocabulary -- it just struck me as a funny coincidence and I wondered if you had google-word-of-the-day on your homepage and had 'ebullient' on your mind for that reason. :-p of course, my comment was so late it was irrelevant!
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
aww, haha!! nah, my homepage is always about:blank because i never have the patience for a homepage to load before i'm off to check emails or myspaces or whatever the hell, heh... patience is still something i haven't got in spades ;) but this was a really joyful post; i could tell you were all bubbling ;)
suesniffsglue ══╣╠══
This post made me feel uplifted. Good for you! It's so nice to read things like this.
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
yay! It is lovely to see that the joy was spread ;-)
tawney ══╣╠══
Have fun at Curves! It's a really positive experience. I worked there for two years, and I really think you will love it.

Happy belated Christmas, and happy New Year!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
awesome! :D

same to you!
unusual_focus ══╣╠══
*massive hugs*
belenen ══╣nuzzle╠══
thesoulforged ══╣╠══
Glad you are feeling better and happy to read your good experiences. It's nice when someone else's life can enlighten, enrich, and uplift your own. :)

belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
yes, that is wonderful! :D
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
^.^ I just wanted to say it's good to see you so happy.
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
awww, thank you!
phydeau ══╣╠══
"Fertile" can be a scary word to men (Hi, Ben!). Good night, and happy new year. :)
belenen ══╣teasing╠══
pah! ;-)
mourningdoveava ══╣╠══
That conversation was such a tremendous blessing to me in so many ways. ♥ I'm glad that you're rocketing back up to the surface.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
*snugglehugs* ♥ ♥ ♥
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.