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goals for 2008: the year of risk-taking

LJ idol topic 15: "My Biggest Challenge"

My greatest challenge is always the one in front of me. There's really no way to compare previous challenges, because I wasn't the same person when I faced them; the very act of facing them changed me. I also can't compare them to challenges others face, because they aren't me. What would be routine for them is a challenge for me, and vice versa. So in a sense, the only challenge that exists for me is the one I am facing at the moment. Old challenges and other people's challenges are good for learning from but otherwise irrelevant.

Right now, my challenge is connecting with the physical world. I have a strange dichotomy of bravery/cowardice: I welcome emotional risk, even seek it out -- hell, I spend all my energy searching for it. I'm an emotional skydiver. But when it comes to the physical world, I flee risk, even the slightest, most inconsequential, like walking in my neighborhood alone (logically, not a risk). I want to change. I want to seek out physical risk -- not inviting harm, but being willing to make small risks for the sake of being connected with the world. I want to make sure that this fear is conquered, so that I can find my opportunities. I need to stop treating my body like it is some valuable to be locked away in a safe while my inner self does the real living; I need to stop the obsessive caution and use my body like the instrument it is. It's not made of glass; if I get injured I can heal. So...

I've declared 2008 the year of risk-taking, and here are my goals (stars by the ones I have already taken steps in, bolded the ones I've done):

  • take risks! when I have an opportunity that I am uncomfortable taking, take it!
    --- ★ -- longer drives, less familiar territory
    --- ★ -- meet more people; get involved with groups
    --- ★ -- take the initiative to make plans with friends
    --- find local events and go to them, alone!
    --- take at least one long bus trip to visit out-of-state friends (I've never taken a bus)
    --- go skinnydipping at least once
    --- go to at least one concert
    --- get passport, travel out of the States! (I've never been out of the US)
    --- go to Scotland & Belgium, meet Kate and Meliae, spend time with Hannah and Nick!
    --- maybe, just maybe, go skydiving. *eeeeek*

  • develop spiritually
    --- grow closer to God/dess
    --- ★ -- practice listening to my spirit and following my intuition!!!
    --- write more about my spiritual journey
    --- ★ -- go to church more & read more spiritual books
    --- visit the Etowah mounds
    a few times, maybe once a month after it gets warm.

  • get stronger
    --- ★ -- go to curves three times a week, stay active
    --- take a self-defense class
    --- do the nocturnal treetop excursion in April
    --- dance more, maybe start taking bellydancing classes again.

  • create more
    --- ★ -- make more jewelry
    --- paint more (get an easel, maybe find a painting buddy)
    --- ★ -- photography (take more and especially SHARE more)

  • decorate myself more; develop a wardrobe that is more expressive of me.
    --- get streaks of violet in my hair when it gets to the right length
    --- get at least one tattoo!
    --- ★ -- get more 'me' clothing and go to the trouble of arranging outfits rather than wearing the easiest thing to put on.
    --- ★ -- find more of my meaningful rings and fix my soul ring :-(

  • bring more love and joy into the world:
    --- leave 'you are beautiful' notes, make trinkets to give away
    --- ★ -- give genuine, full smiles to people rather than this wan thing I've gotten in the habit of
    --- strike up more conversations with strangers

  • meet more of my lj friends!
    --- ★ -- meet at least 5 4 new I haven't before! (met Katie, yay!)
    --- visit Kat (once it gets warm)
    --- maybe visit Megan & Dee, Ali, Katie, Vee & Nea? too many for one year probably but I'll aim for the stars.
    --- meet Ava (and maybe Ry and Dani), maybe during a stopover in NY on May 27th? I may have a 3-to-10 hour stopover, so if you live near JFK airport and wanna meet me, let me know asap because I am (*deep breath*) BUYING THE TICKET THIS WEEK! It's a little cheaper to go through Toronto so if nobody wants to can meet me I'll be going that way instead.
    --- any of you *points to flist* are welcome to come visit me anytime, as long as you don't mind sharing a bed or crashing on the couch. *sigh* hopefully this time next year we will have guest space.

  • Self-educate:
    --- ★ -- read 55 books or 17,171 pages this year, keep a running list, and post updates!
    --- keep at least a 1-to-4 ratio of non-fiction to fiction.
    --- maybe take art classes? or ASL? I want to learn so badly!

  • ★ -- further develop my soulfriendship with Nimajneb
  • create a new soulfriendship or restore an old one.
  • find a girlfriend
  • ★ -- post WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT, as often as I am moved to do so

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kschap ══╣╠══
Skinny-dipping and bus trips are two of my favorite things! :)

Good luck achieving your goals this year!!
belenen ══╣powerful╠══
thank you!
gem_night77 ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣strong╠══
thank you!

I don't know anything about Weight Watchers (and wouldn't be interested since I'm not interested in losing weight), but I like Curves. I was given a guest membership for two months, but because of the $100 fee to officially sign up, I probably won't be going after the two months are up. It's worth it if you're easily able to afford the sign-up fee, though. ;-)
suesniffsglue ══╣╠══
Those are truly awesome goals! Best of luck to you; those are worthy self-challenges.
belenen ══╣progressing╠══
thank you!
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belenen ══╣powerful╠══
how wonderful, thank you!
winternightsky ══╣╠══
Sounds like it'll be an awesome year.
belenen ══╣hopeful╠══
hopefully ;-)
browneyedgirl65 ══╣╠══
A very interesting distinction -- what would you consider emotional risk taking?
belenen ══╣analytical╠══
risking emotional hurt -- being vulnerable, sharing with others and being there for them. Basically, risking getting your heart broken.
lilmissmagic71 ══╣╠══
wonderful attitude of self exploration and development! Good luck on your goals! Good post!
belenen ══╣progressing╠══
thanks so much!
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delicatexflower ══╣62; tv. pushing daisies - "olive"╠══

oh! i love your list! i admire you for
always challenging yourself. if you ever
come to new york, i'll be more then happy
to give you a tour of the city. :] hehe!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
thanks! :D I would love to do that.
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belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
Re: I am floored
oh, wonderful, I'm so glad you're inspired! :D
jendaby ══╣╠══
Well, May 27th is a Tuesday and my daughter will still have school, but I can try and see what is do-able. My husband's aunt lives near JFK by the beach. If your layover is long enough, and you want to escape an airport, I can investigate interesting things going on at that time. I would LOVE to meet you - I would just have to arrange logistics with the kids, etc.

I would also love to visit your area, but finances will have to change for us a little before that can happen.

I have several of the same challenges for myself this year - and I admire you for creating the personal challenges for yourself and also feel more connected to you in seeing things we have in common. :) *hugs*
belenen ══╣curious╠══
unfortunately the NY-stopover flight didn't work out, but I still hope to come to NY sometime this year. I'll be sure to meet you if/when I do! ;-)

what are your challenges? *is curious*
rockstarjoker4 ══╣╠══
this is a great list! Good luck with all your risks!
belenen ══╣progressing╠══
thanks! :D
aniumus ══╣╠══
whoot for asl! I could teach u some if you have a web cam!! :)

and the tree top thing sounds nifty :D
belenen ══╣curious╠══
oh cool! how did you learn asl?
frecklestars ══╣╠══
Your goals are so awesome. I aspire to some of them (e.g. getting a tattoo, glamourbombing, traveling, reading more, etc). Though I don't know if all of mine will get done in a calendar year; because of my being a perpetual student, my personal new year always falls in September.
belenen ══╣progressing╠══

ah. This is the first time I've ever taken a new year seriously; it's interesting so far!
packerchc4 ══╣╠══
Great goals. Looks like it took a good bit of time to make such a good list.

I love the reading goal. I know I've got so many books laying around that I should read!
belenen ══╣curious╠══
thanks! it took a few days of pondering. ;-)

I know, I have a ton of books I haven't yet read. I just can't resist getting new used books!
chillychilly22 ══╣╠══
What a great list! I'm excitd for you. I can't wait till you start knocking things off your list!
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
me toooo! :D
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