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sleep & dreams / communicating / changing shape / gifted art! / met Kimberley, Jason, Aranatha

Day before yesterday I was up for 29 hours, then I went to sleep for about 19 hours. My schedule is so insane because I have SO MUCH going on, emotionally. I haven't been able to catch up mentally, which is why I haven't been able to write about it in any real way. Now thanks to many many dreams last night, I feel emotionally caught up but there is a new development that makes me uncertain all over again, and I am waiting to see what happens before I pour it all out. Sorry for the crypticness, I think you'll understand when I finally make that megapost.

I've been communicating so much lately (phone, IM, email) -- more in the past two weeks than in the rest of this year combined. It feels really good, like a dam broke and all of this connection is flowing into and through me. So many possibilities, so much hope, so much newness.

I also seem to be changing shape; I think from a combination of using the HealthRider and just using so much emotional energy that my body is burning more fuel. The best thing is that I'm starting to feel muscles in my midsection, legs, and arms (on the inside, not the outside). I feel so much stronger, so fast! It feels good.

You know the amazing artist I posted about a while back, Willow Jenkinson? She is framing and sending me Devotion to the Matron as a gift! I loved it so much I wanted to buy it, but she offered it as a gift and I wasn't about to say no. The COLORS! The FACES! It's absolutely my favorite of her pieces so far. AND I GET TO OWN IT. THE ORIGINAL. It's going in my sanctuary ♥

I might be meeting Ava in two weeks. I'm trying not to get excited until the tickets are bought but -- I'm excited anyway, can't help it!

Also, I've been meaning to post about this for a long time -- I met Kimberley (darkpool), Jason (thesaj), and Aranatha (babythyme) at the end of February! Kimberley is one of my oldest LJ friends -- I 'met' her in April, 2004. About a year later I LJ-met Jason, and a year after that they got married, and about a year after that, Aranatha was born. (okay, enough timelining) They came into Atlanta for a conference and gave me the opportunity to finally meet them!

I was surprised on meeting Kimberley because her writing style can come across as formal and reserved, but in person she's SO bubbly! I know that if we lived close we'd spend a lot of time together. And I'd spend a lot of time babysitting too, because Aranatha is absolutely the most adorable child EVER. She was so HAPPY, smiling and cooing all the time! I could not stop grinning because she just radiated the most pure joy I've ever seen! I wanted to go move in with Kimberley and Jason and be their nanny, haha. And Jason was so outspoken and free -- I found it very interesting to listen to him rant about this and that, and rant along with him *giggles* My poor partner was a little overwhelmed by 1) new people 2) new places, and 3) loud conversation!

my partner and I drove into Atlanta and got lost trying to find them, had the WORST time, because it was ridiculously, insanely cold (wtf, GA?) and they were walking around outside, so we were trying to hurry which was making us get even more lost. Finally we met up, by the grace of God/dess, and piled into my partner's tiny car. We gave up on finding the elusive Thai restaurant and just drove out of Atlanta, while Jason used his GPS to find a restaurant, and ended up first at a Mexican restaurant that was closed, and then at one where no one spoke English. After a linguistic adventure in ordering, we had quite a delicious meal, and then made our way to a Steak and Shake for dessert (it was late by this time). Then we took a few photos and had more adventure getting them back to where they were staying, haha.

Kimberley, Aranatha, and Jason

me, Kimberley, and Aranatha, cutest baby ever

see my giant grin? my face did not change the whole night :D

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acid_burns ══╣╠══
That kid is a charmer! :)

Loved this post. And look at that smile on you ♥
thesaj ══╣╠══
From Da Daddy...
She is a charmer...but be forewarned!

Being born on Friday the 13th she has a darker more sinister side... ;)

belenen ══╣giggling╠══
Re: From Da Daddy...
HAHAHAHAHA! OMG that is so fantastic. :D
belenen ══╣adoring╠══
yes she is!

eee! *beams*
deleon ══╣╠══
She is too cute! Something is changing in you, you can see it in your eyes and on your face.
belenen ══╣selfportraiture╠══
♥ thank you! These photos are about a month old, but I think that the change had begun before then, you are right. ;-) I need to do a new self-portrait shoot soon.
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
That is so generous of Willow! I love her even more now. ^.^

I am glad you got to meet more LJ friends. *wishes she lived closer to hers*
belenen ══╣ecstatic╠══
I KNOW! she is crazy-awesome. and she even sent it express -- it got here TODAY omg !!!

I know, I love it! meeting LJ friends is the bestest. I wish I lived closer to mine though :-p or at least that they'd cluster up! but I have it better than you, heh.
lorelei_sakti ══╣╠══
Kimberley looks so friendly! I'm glad you got to meet each other in person.
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
she is! :D I'm glad too ;-)
chillychilly22 ══╣╠══
You've been meeting alot of people from LJ. Awesome! And you're hair is getting long. Planning on growing it out?
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
I know, I love it!

I'm gonna grow it down to my collarbones in the front, and cut it really short in the back ;-)
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
cute photos, bel-- and look how long your hair is!
belenen ══╣amused╠══
thanks! and heh. finally overcoming that horror of a chop from last year ;-p
thesaj ══╣╠══
It was good getting to meet you two. (I know I am very gregarious and sometimes fail to reign myself I do hope I did not step on Nimajneb's toes, and I apologize if I did.)

And yes, the linguistic adventure was a blast. And the food was quite good.


- The Cute Adorable One's Dada!!!
belenen ══╣amused╠══
Re: :)
oh no, you didn't step on his toes ;-)

I'm so glad I got to meet you guys and the cute adorable one :D
darkpool ══╣╠══
Every time I see a pictures of Aranatha I think "Awww, there's my baby." Even when she's right here, like now. :-) Your husbands in the back of the one picture, that's kind of neat. I haven't even taken the pictures from that trip off my camera yet.
I wish you lived near enough to babysit. I've spent hours looking for someone to babysit with very little luck. One of the few people that was available has 1-2 other kids and four big dogs. Not really thinking that's where I want to send my pull-y grab-y 8 month old ya know?

You were a little more subdued than I thought you'd be. I wish we could have spent more time together. Atalanta was kind of a weird trip in so many ways. Everything turned out differently than I thought it would, not in a bad way but it was strange.

it's nice to see a nice picture of me, Jason and Aranatha, we don't have many of the three of us.
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
awwww :D oh wow, I didn't notice him in the window until you said that!

aw, I wish I lived near enough to babysit too. :-p

Yeah, if I remember correctly I had been up for 20-something hours, so I was kinda dull, and cold always bothers me a lot, so I wasn't quite my normal self. We'll have to get together again sometime and spend more time ;-)
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.