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Aurilion's visit - shimmeringly lovely! / ever-deeper in love / heart-openness / dreaming to process

Aurilion's visit was rainbow-shatteringly, thunderstorm-resoundingly, forest-clappingly pixie-ecstatic! Oh God/dess, there really aren't words. I'm shaking now with the thrill of remembering it. Everything, EVERYTHING, was on fire with joyful pinwheels of color. *deeeeep sigh*

Just one photo for now, but I already went through ALL 400+ photos and edited my favorites for posting. Aurilion hasn't seen the others yet so I am waiting for the CD I shipped zir to arrive before I share any more. *impatient bounce* I may even have a video to share if ze gives me permission :D I'll probably be making several posts describing each day...

I learned so much about Aurilion and fell so much more in love with zir! I learned that ze giggles even more than I do! And I saw zir tiger side -- I hadn't seen it before but wow, ze is fierce, and wild. (and as feline as I am) So creative, so full of faith, so full of joy. And as photogenic as ze is, ze is so much more beautiful in person, with zir glorious spirit shining through. Ze is SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. I could not stop gazing at zir -- every single aspect is so perfect, so stunning. And zir touches? God/dess, shiveringly delightful! So gentle and sweet -- I get the taste of honey and the scent of Bastet when I think of zir magic fingertips on my skin. And kisses... oh wow. (I will save that for another post, as it deserves its own)

The visit was only four days (three full days and two halves) but felt like an eternity and a flash. Every moment was so alive with meaning! I noticed after ze left that I was completely drained and exhausted (in a good way), which set me to thinking, and I realized that it was because of our heart-openness. I am very willing to open my heart and I am in the habit of opening it wide at any invitation, but my 'at rest' state is half-open. Aurilion is even more willing to open zir heart and so our mutual invitations kept both of our hearts wide-open the whole visit. I'm not used to having my heart wide-open for such a long stretch at a time, so by the end I was overwhelmed. (Aurilion was too, but not quite as much I don't think, as zir heart's 'at rest' state seems to be 3/4ths open, so it wasn't quite as much of a stretch) I'm amazed that ze can live so heart-open -- ze inspired me so much the whole visit! I've been in a resting-state from the intense growth of this experience, which is why I didn't post this sooner -- even though I was yearning to express it! I needed time to gather myself and process things.

I also realized that I have a rather unique way of processing things -- through dreams. Yes, I know that technically everyone does this, but for me it is a very active experience. I don't lucid-dream, but I actively meditate on and learn from my dreams. If I don't get enough dream-time (most of which occurs after 7 hours of sleep, for me) when in a period of growth, I start feeling confused and frustrated -- I need to dream. So I have spent a lot of time dreaming the past two days, and now I feel like I am taking all these new jewels of wisdom-love and setting them into the complex design that is my Self.

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jenniology ══╣Blue skies╠══
I'm glad you had such a fantastic time together! :)
belenen ══╣giving╠══
thank you! :D
opheliasxflower ══╣╠══
I was thinking about you two throughout the weekend, hoping that you were having a fantastic time. I'm glad you did! I'm so happy for the both of you!
belenen ══╣kissy╠══
aww, yay! thank you!
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belenen ══╣ecstatic╠══
awww yay! and yes, we are a perfect match :D it is delightful to feel our amazing connection! and I cannot believe I am seeing Hannah so soon! It makes me wonder what sort of person I am going to be on the other side -- how can anyone stand so much joy? *giggles*
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Me:  Wedding Fairy - laughing
mermaiden ══╣Me: Wedding Fairy - laughing╠══
This entry is soooooo happy and wonderful, it put such a grin on my face!! I am SO happy for you, darlin'!! :) *LOVE*
belenen ══╣kissy╠══
awww yay! thank you! *hugs!*
flyingshaman ══╣╠══
This post made me glowglowglow!

I was wondering why I didn't need a break to process through stuff as much as you did - you're right, my heart is very open!

I love you, sweet lover, I love you.

And YAYAYAYAYA for seeing Hannah soon! I can't wait to hear how that goes.

Yep, dreams are very important to you, most definitely. I think breathing and simply letting things pass through is what's most important to me, always embracing and letting them go, because then whatever I need is always there!
belenen ══╣pensive╠══
*glows with you!*

well, it wasn't so much that I needed a break, as it was that quietness and dreaming is my way of processing, as talking and giggling is yours ;-) But yes, I think it was a bit more of a stretch for me, as I think your heart is more open than mine when at rest. I think that is wonderful and I am learning so much from you! Having a wide-open heart for four days without ceasing was an incredible experience.

I can't believe I'm seeing zir in 15 days omg!
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belenen ══╣╠══
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belenen ══╣dancy╠══
:D !
mourningdoveava ══╣╠══
I'm glad it went so well for both of you; kept you both close to heart. Nankurunaisa.
belenen ══╣loving╠══
♥ thank you love!

and maybe, live through yesterday for the sake of today :D
the_amberly ══╣╠══
=)! It's awesome that you two had such an amazing experience together
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
yes it is! :D
shadowlily ══╣╠══
it's so happy and good to know the two of you. you glow together <3

i savour your words 'cause they softly open my heart, as well
belenen ══╣openness╠══
awwwwww ♥ oh Sarah, you are woooooonderful ♥ *loves!* We both are so very fond of you!
armandii ══╣╠══
That is such a lovely photograph of the two of you, the happiness and love radiates out of my screen and makes me smile.
belenen ══╣rainbowarrior╠══
eeeee! it makes me smile too! :D
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
What a wonderful sounding visit you both had! That is a beautiful photo of you both, you both look so happy.
belenen ══╣oneness╠══
oh yes! thank you! :D
folkchick3 ══╣╠══
How very wonderful for two such amazing people to have found each other!
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
♥ thank you so much!
queerbychoice ══╣╠══
I'm glad you had such a wonderful time!
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
thank you! :D
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musicandmisery ══╣mulholland drive - love story╠══
What a beautiful post. :)
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
♥ thank you! ;-)
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kschap ══╣╠══
yaaaay! I was anxiously awaiting hearing from you. :) glad to hear everything went wonderfully, and can't wait to see the other photos!
belenen ══╣vivacious╠══
*giggles* YAY!!! :D
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