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some of my goals for 2009: save & buy a Hapi drum in the Akebono Key of D & become more active/fit

I've been working on a list of goals for this year, and there are a few things I wanted to delve more deeply into, so here they are:

save up and buy a Hapi drum in the Akebono Key of D

I've always loved music and wanted to create it, but I couldn't work with the instruments made available to me. I never liked the sound of piano, and when my parents forced me to take lessons for four years, that added a massive amount of resentment to my mild dislike. I tried taking guitar because I DID like the sound of that, but it just felt too awkward for me -- partly because of the small size of my hands, I think. I longed to play the bass guitar because of the deep, rhythmic sound but never had the opportunity, and for me that's still too... structured.

The first time I tried an instrument that resonated with me, I remember feeling such a THRILL, such a sensation of wildness and pure unstructured expression. It was just five minutes playing a friend's set of conga drums, but it was enough to let me know that percussion -- by hand, not by a mallet or stick -- is MY music. I asked my friend how much they were and I can't remember the sum but it was enough to make me feel that they were forever out of reach, might as well forget them. So I did. Then this past year when I visited Hannah, I tried playing zir bodhrán and I felt that same thrill! That oh-my-god/dess-yes-this-is-me! feeling. I determined that I was going to get some kind of drum, whatever I could afford, and start playing. I was very drawn to the bodhrán (I still am, I think I must have some passionate bodhrán players in my ancestry), but I hesitated for some reason in getting it. (even though it actually is affordable)

Then at the end of October last year, I was searching for information about Hapi, an intersexed personification of the Nile who I feel a strong kinship with, and I came across the HAPI drum (meaning Hand Activated Percussion Instrument)! I fell so completely in love, crying with joy at how PERFECT this instrument is for me (and how I found it!). It's played by hand, creates various tones, is easy to carry around, comes in many colors, has a dichroic glass center... oh, I'm so in love and you must watch

AND "The Hapi Drum is an earth and Eco-friendly product, made almost entirely from recycled steel. Our Mallets are made from natural fibers. The durable coating that we use on the outside (and inside) of your Hapi Drum leaves no waste and emits ZERO VOCs (volatile organic compounds) and contains no harmful solvents to be released into the air like common spray and liquid paints do. Any of the coating that is left over gets recycled again to help coat the next Hapi Drum."

If I manage to save $50 a month, I can get it by my next spiritual birthday (November 13th) which will be my 11th. ;-) I'm not sure yet if I need to get it sooner or wait that whole time -- I may try to find other ways of gathering funds if I start feeling more urgency about it. I kinda want it by summer...

When I first saw the price I was like, oh well, it's a nice dream but it won't happen... but it just kept coming up, and I feel that getting a Hapi drum for myself is a very important step in my spiritual path. So it's going to happen, even if I have to practice patience for it. ;-)


become more active/fit

Earlier this week I had a fantastic idea which so far has worked very well! I set my phone alarm to go off every thirty minutes, whereupon I reset it and go use the healthrider briefly (enough to get my heart rate up). I'm gradually increasing the length of each session and might add weights eventually. I'm so excited about this because it really works for me! I don't have to worry about the weather, the time, or clothing, and I don't have to set aside a chunk of time every day (which usually ends up getting forgotten until the very end of the day when I am ready to fall into bed). I can go slow and easy if I'm feeling bad, or do extra if I'm feeling good! and it's free -- no gas money, no gym fees -- and it's FUN. I love the healthrider, it reminds me for all the world of riding in the front of a speedboat. And it keeps my energy from getting stagnant, because it's interspersed throughout the day. I've only been doing it for about 5 or 6 days now but I can already feel more energy and strength! An odd thing I noticed is that my lung capacity is increasing. I didn't realize just how little (read: ZERO) aerobic exercise I got until I started feeling what it is like to breathe more deeply again. I haven't enjoyed activity this much since I had a routine of cartwheels and swimming (at age 17). I'm feeling POWER in my arms and legs again! I love how quickly my body responds to workouts of any kind.

I also plan on taking regular walks with Nim (once it's warm) and once I cash my Christmas check from mom (hopefully this Thursday) I'm going to order a balance chair so that I can strengthen my core muscles. When I feel like they're strong enough I'm going to take bellydance lessons again (if I can find some affordable ones).

[[Happy Birthday celestialsight! ♥]]

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flyingshaman ══╣╠══
OH LOVE!!! This sounds amazing!! Oh I could -hear- the excitement in your voice and how wonderful this is. YAY!

This is really, really awesome - yay for you!!!

belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
*glows and beams* yes! :D
celestialsight ══╣╠══
Oh I love the sound! I can't wait to see videos of you playing it! :D
belenen ══╣amused╠══
haha! you just ASSUME I'm going to be making videos! well, I do hope to but it's only a maybe! ;-)
paravati ══╣╠══
Wow, now you've done it. I totally am slobbering over the HAPI drum. :)

belenen ══╣musical╠══
hee hee! :D
mr_keyz ══╣Rainbow╠══
Oooh, I love that! That would go over crazy well in my music class. hehe! Have a blast with it!

belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
I will, I'm sure! :D
isophrenic ══╣╠══
That drum sounds gorgeous! I tend to think that music is something very basic that we humans do, whether it involves banging things together, blowing into openings, twanging bits of string and such. Everything else is just fluff. Don't get me wrong, I am very, very attached to some of that fluff, but I absolutely hate to see anybody being put off music because of the rigour surrounding particular classical instruments.
belenen ══╣musical╠══
mm, yeah! I love this comment, thanks!
misc; dance.
delicatexflower ══╣misc; dance. "belly dancer."╠══

what a beautiful instrument! ♥

ooh. belly dancing is so up your alley! i know you will be an amazingggg belly dancer.

they are offering belly dancing classes at the senior center starting on 02/06 it made me think of you because it IS belly dancing, but also because it's your birthday! ;)
belenen ══╣dancy╠══
hee hee ♥ I took bellydance for a while a few years ago, but then my teacher quit and I haven't been able to find another who was close enough and inexpensive enough :-p

ohhh, you should totally take them if you can! :D bellydancing helps you connect with your body in a way nothing else does.
beauty: twinkling
shioneh ══╣beauty: twinkling╠══
Oh.. Wow, what an absolutely mesmerizing ethereal and sacred sound, the hapi seems so right for you, and even more with the dichroic glass center - it seems very destined for you to find it! I am so glad you're finding strength again through exercise, I started walking every day a week and a half ago and I hear you on the increased breathing

*health and energy*
belenen ══╣powerful╠══
yes! :D

it's amazing how just a little bit more activity makes me feel so much more connected to my body!
sidheblessed ══╣╠══
Drums resonate really well with me too. I actually want a bohdran myself. The Hapi drum has a extrememly petty and, I dunno, visionary sound to it. I hope it doesn't take too long to save for your drum!
belenen ══╣musical╠══
ohh, I hope you can get a bohdran, that seems so perfect for you!

I hope it doesn't take me too long too, haha! ;-)
(Anonymous) ══╣╠══
belenen ══╣powerful╠══
I hope so too! ;-)

yeah! and not only stronger, but more alive somehow, like my spirit stretches out from the core to really fill all the spaces.
deleon ══╣╠══
African drums are my thing. I discovered this when I took some African dancing lessons where they used real drums for the music. For years I thought I wanted to play regular drums. But like you, the structure really bothered me. Plus, African drums are so primitive and intuitive they really resonated with me. I want to get an authentic one, but it is something I have to save up for because authentic ones are expensive, but worth it.

As for your exercise, doing it at random like that is a good idea. Sporadic exercise and sporadic levels of exercise increases your metabolism faster than does repetitive, same rate, exercise, which is probably why you notice the difference in energy.

I would suggest you try yoga for core strength. I have done the balance ball and frankly, it does not compare to the strength, and agility I get from yoga. It has balanced all areas of my body and has made having a good posture second nature. I put off really getting down and doing yoga for probably about six months (I would watch videos while folding laundry -heh heh). I am AMAZED at not only how easy it is, but how little time it takes for the amazing results. It has given me the best core stability I've had in my life, and I'm 35. Plus you can find exercises for free online. If you do go this route, make sure you watch the videos, as opposed to the still photos, or you'll miss important things.

I would think you would really enjoy a good five minutes of dancing (any way you want) throughout the day. Dancing is fun and can burn a lot of calories and is TOTALLY unstructured. :)
belenen ══╣dancy╠══
oh, yes indeed! I love the sound of those too.

hmm, interesting! It makes sense too.

Well, I have been interested in yoga, but that feels like something I would want to do with someone, and in a structured way. By core strength I mean lower back, abdominals, hip flexors, and external obliques, all of which would be worked out by sitting on a balance chair, and I would also be able to use it while doing things on the computer. I think yoga will have to wait until I have someone to do it with, I just can't motivate to do it alone.

yeah! I definitely do enjoy dancing ;-)
impossibly beautiful
frecklestars ══╣impossibly beautiful╠══
Oh wow! That is an enchanting drum sound; my computer was vibrating in my lap in lovely ways while the music was going. I look forward to videos of you playing it; it just seems such a "you" sort of instrument - strong and soft and allover lovely.
belenen ══╣amused╠══
heee hee, well HOPEFULLY I'll have the guts to make and post videos ;-)
darkpool ══╣╠══
Aranatha liked the drum. She listened to the whole thing and even stopped whining about "melmo" for the whole thing. Amazing that such a range of sound comes from it.

Getting in shape is good. I need to do that to. It was warm out the other day (like 50's) but i didn't realize till the evening, which was a bummer because outside exercise is definitely my preference.

I'm thinking about taking a bellydance class. I think I need to do something for me anyway and the idea has always intrigued me. I need a new form of kinesthetic learning I think and marital arts is out for now. Not that I couldn't practice forms but for me it's all missing without sparring.
belenen ══╣dancy╠══

I know what you mean! I looooooooooooong for warm days again.

ohh! I hope you do take bellydance! Did you know it originated as something women did to prepare for birth? It works out all the muscles you need for the birthing process, if I'm remembering correctly.
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