today's been difficult. I don't even know why. I keep trying to write about it... I feel hollow, yearning, low. I feel like I need something but don't know what. I feel like... I'm about to walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Not in a fearful way, but almost looking forward to it and getting exhausted with waiting. I feel really confused about a lot of things. I feel like I do too much listening and I have forgotten how to speak. I feel lost, mute.

btw there have been some fucking AWESOME posts on my friends page in the past couple of days -- I'm wowed indeed so if you thought I'd comment with omg yay, you're right, but I haven't had the energy to do it yet. ♥