Of course in the moment I wasn't thinking much more than "mmmmmm" and "oh my God/dess." Kissing and cuddling with Ben is just intoxicating! And that sweetness in zir presence just gets stronger each time I see zir; it's almost overwhelming. I'm in awe that so much gorgeousness can radiate from just one spirit. and I really feel insanely lucky that ze's sharing it with me ♥
Polyamory is so amazing, and so utterly perfect for me -- something I'm realizing viscerally for the first time because I'm only involved with poly people right now, so there's not that hesitation/worry that was in the back of my mind when I was with my ex-partner. To feel this with Ben AND what I feel for Viv at the same time? To follow my heart unquestioningly? it's just... wow. I'm all aglow, I'm so gloriously happy, I'm so exactly where I'm meant to be. Wow.