I'm being slammed back and forth between deep rage that might be better described as hatred, and a sorrow so heavy it makes me feel unable to breathe. I've never felt so utterly devalued.
I don't know how to handle this. Usually when someone hurts me I can understand why they act the way they do, and can empathize, and it helps. I can't relate to this. And usually when I break up with someone I want to be close again in the future -- not this time.