we flow into each other;
there's no space between
I'm so utterly wide-eyed in wonder over this... and thinking, if those little moments I'd had before created such ripples in my life, what is this doing and what is it going to do?
And... oh my God/dess, it's so absolutely heady, deliriously intoxicating, fucking INTENSE. Last night we went out for dinner and coffee followed by cuddling and kissing... and there were moments where eye contact was enough to make me gasp. Just EYE CONTACT felt more intimate than anything I've ever experienced, and as erotic as any touch. Yes, ANY. I didn't think that was possible and I certainly didn't think that I'd ever be that 'oversensitive' but there you go.
In other news, Ash was quite offended at being put in a bulleted post that included a complaint about my ex and demanded zir own post but I don't respond well to demands so you get put in a Ben post, howd'yalikethatASH??? But I'm actually moving in with zir! Tomorrow the books 'n' furniture are going and then I'm going to collect the bits and pieces and then, and THEN, I'm going to have MY OWN SPACE for the first time in almost 6 years!!! I cannnnnnnot wait! And I'm pretty excited about having Ash as a flatmate too, because ze's my kin (not blood-kin but kin in the way that matters) and I think that it's going to be lovely to bond more with zir. And I think we'll work well as flatmates because we enjoy sharing but also are pretty good at recognizing our boundaries and communicating them. And our flat is so beautiful and peaceful -- and when I walked into my room at 6pm, I fell to my knees in delight because it was SO FULL OF LIGHT. But I refuse to