March 2019
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being around similar spirits makes me more me / intuition-link with Anita / "what are you thinking?"

I've noticed this odd thing that happens when I'm around similar spirits -- I become more myself. More confident and more likely to do things that are true to my core self. This weekend Anita and I went to the drum circle in Atlanta and something about zir presence made me feel able to drum and keep on even when I made mistakes instead of getting completely embarrassed and just sitting there. I've gotten into that space twice before -- once when Viv and I were really close and I went to the drum circle (I think right before or right after seeing zir) and once when Hannah and Nick and I sat around and jammed (SO magical). But it's not just with music and shyness-factor things, it's also something much more difficult to express. It's like... if you have two lights and you put a violet gel over each of them, the room is much more violet than it would be if one was violet and the other was just white. It makes me see everything in a more violet-spirited way and then I act in a more violet-spirited way. And alone I'm a bit tempered by other colors. I'm still the same creature either way but I'm intensified around violet spirits. Hm. Actually that happens when I'm around red souls or green hearts as well but then it isn't my CORE being intensified -- it's less intuitional and more conscious.

Ooooh, and last week when I was at the borderpagans meeting (and then at dinner afterward) I kept having that chill-down-my-spine shiver -- like 7 times in three hours! I felt like there must be something odd energetically going on (because I do occasionally have that shiver but never more than two in a day) and when I asked Anita what ze was doing at that time, ze told me ze was reading my LJ and responding to my survey. hee. I can't remember how long it took for Hannah and I to link up to the point where we could feel each other's strong emotions (even across the ocean) but this feels like the start of that. Everything has been so insanely intense so far and I'm trying not to let my excitement pull me faster than I can process the experience. Just... wow.

Also I love that instead of getting annoyed with my constant "what are you thinking/feeling?" questions, Anita has started doing the same thing, hee. (that's a thing I do with anyone interesting, and the more interesting you are the more often you get asked to share your thoughts. It's my way of getting to know you and honing my understanding of your expressions/moods :D) Although ze gets entirely too much enjoyment out of playing on my curiosity and refusing to tell me perfectly simple things just to torture me :-p AND making "thinky" faces just to prompt me to ask and then laughing at me! :-[

And something random-and-totally-awesome? Both Wade and Anita have blue-hazel eyes! I don't know how rare they are in actuality but I've met only a scant handful of us blue-hazeled people, so we seem rare to me :D and it's so fun to watch the colors shift!

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I think it's natural to feel more at-ease being yourself around like people, whatever the common bond happens to be. There's less fear of judgment, which--consciously or subconsciously--can put a damper on your self-expression. It's nice to have a natural comfort zone with people, a similarity that breeds innate understanding and acceptance. I think it's one of those things that adds a measure of serenity, even if it's not necessarily a "calm" bond, if that makes sense.
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