I've never been in so much pain in my life. OH MY GOD OW. I've been laying around and bathing and taking mass amounts of ibuprofen and laying around more because it HURTS to walk. It is much better now than it was Friday and Saturday but it still hurts. It doesn't help that the doc forgot to call in my prescription! I called today and got zir voicemail, left a message, hope I can get meds tomorrow! They don't fix it but they're supposed to make the outbreak shorter. I'm pretty desperately hoping that either it's type 1 or I'm one of those lucky people who never get a second outbreak.
It annoys me that this feels like a shameful secret. So I'm making it public. Because having an STI or STD or whatever the fuck this is does not make me a bad person or dirty or 'promiscuous.' I plan to inform lovers before I have sex (because there is a slim chance of transmission even when one is not having a outbreak) and use proper precautions and all that. And if people judge me because of it, that is their problem and not mine.
