Then my ex-partner came in and was kind to me (I think ze offered to help with the process of getting my tires replaced) and I was suspicious that it was something that Allison had arranged to try to get back at me in a more sneaky way. Ze seemed sincere though, so I accepted zir kindness and allowed zir to be affectionate to me (hug, kiss on the corner of my mouth) but said something like "this isn't a thing that exists" and ze said "we'll work it out." I felt confused (as it seemed like ze was striking up a romantic relationship) but open to whatever outcome, with no investment.
What is really bizarre about this is that both dream-characters are so different from the faces they took on. Allison was probably my most body-positive friend in high school, as well as one of the most non-judgmental people I've known and not at all violent. B is probably the least cuddly person I know and (at least in the past) one of the least 'let's work it out' people I know.
But then, my dreams about speaking up about lookism tend to result in people being violently angry with me. Does my psyche use it as a symbol for all prejudice? that makes sense as it contributes massively to all other prejudices. Maybe I'm really afraid of being attacked if I speak up boldly. In the dreams, something happens that is intensely dreadful enough to shock me out of fear. In real life it's almost always more subtle and when I respond I always try to do so gently (unless I have great trust that the person will listen to my argument regardless of 'tone').