I'm really happy to be with Kylei. I was watching this show that had a romantic relationship in it that I didn't find repulsive (most of them are thoughtless regurgitated heteronormativity at best and usually package non-consent as passion and tradition-obedience as romance), but found realistic and creative and sexy, and it reminded me that I'm so lucky to be living with someone who is like that with me.
In other news I desperately want that book of Bayard Rustin's letters but I can't afford it right now. I may actually go to the library for the first time in over a decade, if they have it. I hate reading books that don't belong to me though, 'cause I can't star and underline and dog-ear and write notes :-/
UGH also I'm in that horrible space where it depresses me how late I am getting up but I compulsively stay up until it's light and then I sleep more than I need because it feels like kindness and safety.