So I was doing the affirmation for a while and asking for a local person who had time and energy to invest in me and would want to invest it in me, who would inspire me spiritually and help my faith grow, who would be a social justice activist who got pissed off about inequality, and at first I was like "no it can't be Topaz, because ze doesn't have time/energy." but that was wrong, and Topaz is everything I asked for, everything and more. I think my current favorite thing about zir is that ze's so fucking brave. Most people when faced with a problem either hide or run or procrastinate, but Topaz just does it immediately.
Also also we went to see Cloud Atlas for Sagan's birthday (Sagan is a lodestar for Topaz) and it was the most profound experience I've ever had with a movie, and I could feel Topaz feeling it as much (Kylei and Adi and Roree too but less intensely), and the resonance shone. And I cried and shook with emotion afterward and Topaz was falling over... and I sort of expected for zir to consider zir connection with the film more profound (very strange reaction, not sure why) but ze so didn't, and ze got me a copy of the book the next day. And ze told me that this experience I had with zir the other day, that ze couldn't find words for, made zir feel like the film made zir feel, which pretty much made my heart explode.