clutched, clung to, squished up and dragged,
wrung for drips of comfort.
I've been touched like a pump dispenser;
just enough to produce results, efficiently,
manipulated for easy pleasure.
I've been touched like a pet;
absent-mindedly, mechanically petted,
as though a pelt and not a living being.
I've been touched like a feral creature;
a placating gesture
with no desire.
I want to be touched like the familiar sacred;
a talisman, a touchstone,
a treasured carving
held reverently, closely.
I want hands on my skin,
fingertips like tiny tongues
tasting my candy skin hungrily.
I want examination, exploration
to be cherished in texture and shape,
in my softness and points,
every curve and crease,
no part unnoticed.