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overwhelmed and in despair about oppression


Sometimes I get overwhelmed by the amount of racist sexist etc shit in the world and how I have no fucking clue how to create any real change and I'll probably die having done nothing to make a more equalist world and how my life has no meaning and then I start crying and then I feel even worse because white woman tears help no one and if I kill myself that's abdicating my responsibility and I have no right to be overwhelmed and it just goes in circles and I don't know what to do with myself and fuck I hate this world and how there is never any rest.

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roina_arwen ══╣Hidden Love╠══
*Hugs* The world is a huge place, and no one person can change it, but if you help even one person to make a positive change in their attitude, that's more than many people do.

I know I don't comment here much, but I do read when I have time. You DO have meaning, and you're one awesome person. ♥
virginia_fell ══╣do not even╠══
Just by being firm about what you do and do not allow in the spaces you control, you are creating a bubble where expectations are different, where the rules are different. Changing your microculture is a guaranteed way to change the world. Sure, it's small, but guarantees in social justice work are few and far between.
camilleyun ══╣Camille Claudel╠══
Change can happen in the smallest of ways. Ever hear the story of the kid and the starfish? A little kid is walking on the beach throwing washed up starfish back in the ocean and an older person approaches the child and says there is no way all those starfish can be saved because it will not make a difference. The kid continues throwing starfish back in the ocean and says, "It made a difference to that one".

Thinking about it globally is very overwhelming and anxiety-producing. You do make a difference on LJ and FB and to the people you know and those you interact with and may never see again. We don't always know how we can affect the lives of others in a positive manner. Some customer may have felt inspired by something you said and made positive changes in their life because of it.

No one person can change the world and even when changes are made, there will always be something else that crops up. It's like a to-do list. Items get scratched off but more are added.
kiwi ══╣╠══
I know I rarely comment but I felt the need to here...
The world is a very frustrating place when you consider the whole. :/

I like the domino approach. I may not be able to have an effect on the whole world but I can effect one person. If I can do that, then perhaps they'll do the same and it'll continue down the line. One domino falls, it only hits the next one. But the next one then falls and hits the one next to it. And so on down the line.

That may be a really optimistic approach but it helps me. I'm in a field where I sometimes feel like I'll never do any good. Where it's all helpless. But the way I figure is that if I can make one person's life a little better each day, then perhaps one of them will go out and make someone else's life better, too. And it'll create a chain.

I've been called terrible names. Some of them aren't even names that apply to me (people think I'm a different race than I am sometimes) but they call me these names. And as a clinical student, I had to find a way to deal with that. I opted to quietly explain that if they were not comfortable seeing me I was happy to go get someone else but if they wanted to leave my race out of the equation, I am here to help and I would rather focus on the concerns that bring them to clinic today. They more often than not seemed surprised by this - some, I think, wanted to see if they could get a reaction out of me. A couple honestly wanted "a white male provider" and that's fine - maybe they didn't feel comfortable with me and I certainly won't begrudge them that. But the rest left it out and I had more than one apologize after the visit was over.

The world is overwhelming and full of pain and terrible, terrible things. But it is so very full of beauty as well. Please never forget that because you are one of the people who creates and who sees beauty. <3
hands_cupped ══╣╠══
I probably have nothing helpful to say but I relate to this. Idk. The people who have changed the world, though, must have felt this at times and they still found a way...

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